Some of you who pay attention may have noticed I'm active on the site again. If you haven't, that's okay. Been kinda under the radar since technically I'm not supposed to be on here. Or online at all. Even so, I think time away has been good for me. I'll be cutting down my watchlist so my inbox doesn't explode every time I take a week off or something. It might get really painful later on when I manage to make myself busy enough that I have to cut it down further. But them's the breaks. There's too much awesome online and I have to be picky if I'm gonna get any work done.

But to answer the question, no, I'm not quite "back" yet. I need to pare down the watch list further, clean out my inbox, and focus on my new job and getting my novel done. The first draft was finished in September, but I've been lazy about going back to it to edit and polish up. Lotta personal stuff going on in my head, and I rarely understand any of it. Rather frustrating. More distractions from where I wanna go and how I wanna live. Life sucks sometimes.

But oh well. I'll just have to adjust the best I can and start fighting back. Somehow. Find people who really, truly care about me, enough to show it, and who won't make demands on me that are unreasonable. Dunno if my family does, but they don't always seem to go out of their way to show me love. And unfortunately, the cold in winter time tends to make me rather less receptive to what I want. Ain't that a kick in the teeth?

I'm carrying on. Always do, somehow. Guess we'll see where I am in a month or so.