Looking for advice [mental abuse topics]
10 years ago
i just need a little advice. I have a friend who basically goes through phases of needing and wanting my attention to straight up ignoring and hating me. I have been going through this same cycle for years now and I just need help... How do I finally cut out and forget someone who care about so much but can break me down into tears. I have spent countless nights unable to sleep blaming myself for things when it isn't even my fault.
I know it takes time. I am doing well and barely tend to get bothered or upset hearing up them. But ... What can I do so I don't fall back into them again when they try to connect again. They mean the world to me but it's so emotionally and mentally damaging its enough to cause me to be unable to draw or have fun. Because of them they cause me to be this insecure person who can't stop but be paranoid that if I say a word out of line our friendship ends on the spot.
I just need advice. What can I tell myself to give myself confidence that I am making the right moves and steps to avoid them.
I know it takes time. I am doing well and barely tend to get bothered or upset hearing up them. But ... What can I do so I don't fall back into them again when they try to connect again. They mean the world to me but it's so emotionally and mentally damaging its enough to cause me to be unable to draw or have fun. Because of them they cause me to be this insecure person who can't stop but be paranoid that if I say a word out of line our friendship ends on the spot.
I just need advice. What can I tell myself to give myself confidence that I am making the right moves and steps to avoid them.
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Also, if this doesn't make sense, it's because I'm falling asleep at my keyboard and this is the last thing I'm doing before I pass out, but I hope everything works out.
You are absolutely doing the right thing. Someone who hates you and treats you so poorly is not a friend. You should be able to speak freely with friends, not tip-toe around. Friends boost your spirits and give you confidence, not tear you down. Just keep reminding yourself of that. Good luck, you can do it!
they clearly dont have your best interests at heart. i know its very hard but YOU are your longest commitment. you owe it to yourself to take good care of your emotional + mental health.
if you need someone to talk to, feel free to message me anytime, ive been there.
Try to talk more to other people while you are healing from the friendship and just keep your mind busy from this certain person.
If for some reason you still wanna try once again with the person do it after enough time has passed for the person to maybe realize their own mistakes as well and hope that they have changed. If this isn't the case, just know that it really isn't worth it.
Please don't be stupid, I've also been in a relationship like this but with actual physical/mental abuse and I was an absolute idiot for thinking that it was okay because I was scared to be left alone and I cared about him for some damn reason even if he did all the bad things to me. I couldn't think of life without him but I let him hurt me for 4 years because I was scared of life and what it would be without him.
Then I found a person who I started to spend time more and I started to lose interest towards this guy who hurt me by simply just spending more time with others. I started to realize there's life after the person. And I'm sure you would realize that soon enough how bad company that person been for you.
Remember the good times as a good memories but also remember why you had to cut the ties. Don't sugarcoat it. And if its hard to remember, write the things up because once you see them on a paper all together, imagine someone else had wrote that paper about their friend and you will realize how horrible things has happened AND it is really YOUR life not someone elses.
In the end she convinced me to bring in more room mates, along with herself who ruined the apartment that was under my name (painted all the walls with bad paint/tried installing stuff that was illegal to the buliding, giant holes in walls, etc)...Was aggressive to my cat while ignoring her own and finally one late night back from school...She came out of her room screaming at me, slapped me and blamed it all on me (though I was barely there due to classes).
It was my very amazing friend from class, who took me in during the incident (I had run off in shock) and had me call the cops...Even when I was half convinced my aggressor wasn't all that to blame. My aunt was the second name on the apt and after our buliding manager told her about the incident, everyone was evicted due to they were just occupants.
It was messy, emotionally awful and horrid due to I lost a lot mutual friends who sided with the girl who hit me...But I really learned a lesson from it all, to stop feeling sorry for people who took out their frusterations on me and took advantage of my trust. This particuliar person found me a year or two later and apologized, of course blaming it on another roomate we had at that time...But honestly I will never forgive the hell she put me through to remind myself to recognize/avoid people like her in the future.
If you have other better people in your life, ask them to be your support to stay away from the one hurting you (who aren't mutual friends with the other party). They can be your anchor like my real bf did and help you steer clear when you're feeling like letting toxic people into your life. I totally understand how damaging this process is...To suddenly not have someone you cared SO much for....Then have to start all over.
I hope you find the strength to kick the person hurting you to the curb. No one deserves to be treated like you described in your post.
Some things I had to do were to completely block them from every site i go to, furaffinity, deviantart, twitter, skype, tumble, ect. So they will not get the chance to contact you at all. If you have friends that are also friends with the person making you feel this way, you must make it clear to them that you want nothing to do with that person. Chances are they, will try and contact you again through your friends and just make you feel crappy again.
This is what I had to do anyways, I still get upset that my friends mentions they person that caused great harm to me and that they still hang with them. I hope you can get through this and don't become as bitter as me!