Well problem one is I lost my master a person who i cared for dearly because his bf felt like I was intruding (long story) then this one guy that really liked me and I really liked him too, we had been talking for like 3 months then find out today he has a bf, he said we wouldn't have been able to because of the distance, his bf lives in Florida but comes up every month to see him.but they're open, which isn't a problem but I wanted to be his bf you know. He still wants to be friends with me but this couldnt have come at a worse time right now. So I'm just completely broken and hurt ready to cry and just drink all my problems away and go into seclusion