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COMMISSIONS OPEN JANUARY 1ST! (also IMPORTANT stuff inside)
9 years ago
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I'll be opening around 5pm (GMT - 5:00) on Friday, january 1st!! Other than that, the process will remain the same, ect, blah, blah, blah. Please read both links above (or below). It should also be noted this is the last time I will be opening commissions this month!
I WILL ONLY BE OPENING 5 SLOTS THIS TIME.
And a note to those whom I still owe commissions: DON'T DESPAIR, I HAVEN'T FORGOTTEN ABOUT YOU ='D I've been working my tail off lately with everyone's commissions and if you haven't seen a sketch soon, you can expect one in the VERY near future! (read below for more info)
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Lately I have received a few notes from my commissioners, wondering what's taking so long on their commissions. They are right in doing this, as there is no reason that I should be so behind in my work, but unfortunately I am. There is a reason, but I don't like to use it as an excuse, although its precisely why my work has suffered so drastically these past few months. One commissioner in specific suggested making a journal like this to let every one know what's been going on, but I've been extremely hesitant to post this as I don't like admitting that I have a problem nor do I want people worrying about me. In short, I've been keeping it to myself instead of addressing it, and as a result I've left my commissioners in the dark. For the past several months, I've been battling with depression, that stems from several sources. The main one being that I feel my life is going nowhere as I cannot find a roommate to move in with so that I can return to school to complete my degree. There have been a few other instances that have also aggressively amplified the depression, but I don't want to call anyone out regarding them. As a result of this constant state of feeling worthless, useless, undesirable, and generally a burden to everyone around me, I've had nearly zero motivation to complete my commissions. I've lost count of how many times I've sat down to work and just couldn't. Not only has it affected my motivation, but there have been several other days where I will start drawing, and nothing will come out right, not even the simplest of sketches or poses, which only makes me feel even worse, like my skill is steadily declining. I don't like being this behind, I hate it. Every time I see a note notification, I'm scared it's gonna be someone asking for a refund that I can't afford to give them. I know that I shouldn't be using this depression as an excuse for my poor performance, but it is the direct cause, and despite my reluctance, I'm glad to finally have it out in the open instead of hidden from all of you.
I greatly appreciate all my commissioner's patience, and to those of you that I have told about this before now, I cannot thank you enough for your understanding. I'm currently recovering from a nasty flu-like virus that I contracted just before the holidays, and have been finishing some personal drawings that were laying around that were either nearly finished or half finished to try and get myself back in the groove of drawing regularly. You can expect to see more personal work alongside my commissions, as its the only way I've found to keep my motivation up while dealing with this depression. It's nothing personal against any of you, but working solely on commissions seems to only drag me down even more, and that feeling is doubled when a commission gets so delayed that the commissioner has to send me a note asking for an update. I'm trying everything I can to keep myself motivated, and my latest idea for doing such is a planned schedule, possibly a planned stream schedule as well. I'll be posting these weekly schedules either here on on twitter, so that all my commissioners can see what is scheduled for the current week, and possibly the upcoming week. I suggest following me there (@TheoTheFoxART) if you would like to see my upcoming art schedules.
One last note I'd like to touch on is the monthly opening of commissions and YCH's. I really don't want to open commissions so often given how behind I am, but as they are my only source of income until I move, I don't really have a choice. YCH's are posted for the same reason, you guys are they only thing keeping my bills paid. If I could afford to, I wouldn't open commissions again until I was caught up completely, but that just isn't a viable option at this point. Frankly, I hate having to open so often, as every time I do I feel like I'm letting you all down.
I don't have the right to have been keeping this from you all, and I sincerely apologize. I know some of you have been waiting for quite a long time, but I'm doing everything within my power to complete everyone's commissions as fast as possible, and in relative order. If you have a commission that is more that 5 months old, I urge you to send me a note ASAP so that I can put you down immediate behind the commissions I already have queued up on my schedule for this week, so that I may complete them as soon as possible. That's all I can offer at this point alongside the most sincerest of my apologies, and a promise that I well be entirely more transparent in the future regarding both commissions, and myself.
Thank you all again for your patience and understanding.
But if you really want me to remind you about two commissons that are older than five months, let me know, because I really don't want to add more stress than I'm sure you have
Also, have some Oreos!
*unloads boxes of em all around you!*
Regarding the depression, if you can see a doctor about it that's probably the best course. A GP can refer you to a psychologist who will either give you the therapy you need to pull yourself out of it, or failing that medication to rebalance the chemicals in your brain.
I do wish you the best of luck and hope everything sorts itself out for you, I'm fine with waiting however long it takes, its always reasurring to me as a commissioner to see you still active in any way, as it means we know you are still around and you really don't seem the type to let people down on purpose ^^
Take care.
I'm sorry to hear that you are going through such a horrible time.
I have to admit I have never been through depression myself, but I know how it can be like and don't like getting made aware that you are suffering this.
Remember that we are all here for you and want to make sure you get all the support we can give to keep you standing tall for a long time, as well as motivating you to continue producing such amazing artwork.
Stay strong my fluffy foxy friend.
granted there will be points when you feel like you're in a slump but you'll break through it
Arting for its own sake can help sometimes- just draw something quick but simple that you'll enjoy drawing- maybe a little sketch of Theo
that's what helps me get back into a swing; I know when I draw my own characters it's easier and more liberating feeling since they're my own characters and I don't feel pressured to get them perfect
Stay strong fellow artist
you have done great work for me in the past my best picture you have ever made me so far is my Fursona and his ref sheet.
Once my upcomming vacation is over in march i might be able to delve into the savings to help you out where i can if i can. you know a form of a tip or even a just for outright being a freind. =3 I want to help you wherever i can and if i can i will. =3 you have my word on that.