I'm living in fear every day thinking about what's going to happen to me if I die and go to heaven. What if I will never play video games in heaven? What if I will never listen to any 90's/early 2000's music in heaven? What if I will never be drawing cartoons in heaven? I can't live without those things. And I fear that if I go to heaven, I may never have any of those stuff ever again.

I'm really scared of dying. I really am.