Not sure if you guys have noticed but I haven't been submitting much lately.. I wish I had content to share but I'm wrestling with depression and art block and it's really taking its toll on me.
I've decided to start back from square one and do more practices and sketches. I noticed I was struggling with finding my own distinct style and I feel like, amidst trying to find myself, I lost the little glimmer of originality I had when I first started up my social media and art accounts. I think I was so consumed with trying to be as talented as everyone else I forgot that my art is my own journey and I need not compare myself to someone who is further down the road.
So, to start off the year, I'm going to try to push myself to do more studies from real life. Less guessing and more learning. I also want to try to change it up every now and again and do the opposite; just draw whatever comes to mind and not stress about things being perfect. My goal is to be able to do the latter while using the knowledge I've gained from doing said studies. Instead of being overwhelmed with simple tasks I'm hoping this will help lighten things up for me; nothing is more frustrating than having a solid image in my mind that I can't get down on paper.
When I was in college I noticed I had a better attitude when I was learning new things and putting them to use in my day to day art rather than just jumping into pieces without any forethought. It's weird for me to admit that school made art more fun? Not the grading and deadlines of course.. I guess it was more along the lines of actually needing to improve and pushing myself to try new things. Now that I can't afford to go back I have to step it up and help myself teach.. myself? lmao

i just wanna git gud (╯3╰)