Hi.
I want to say thank you to everybody who have followed me.
On this journal, I would like to tell you what have happend to me.

A half a year ago, I met 2 furries in real life. 2 korean furries.
I had considered one of them as my best friend at that moment,
and the other one had told me that he had loved me.

We had a great time. We watched a movie, We ate delicious foods..
Everything was going fine.

When the sun started to disappear, I told them that I had to go back to home.
As soon as they heard it, they grabbed me tight and told me that they want to have sex with me.
I thought they were just kidding. It was fuckin creepy though.
I was like, 'Uh..uh, umm, I really want to spend more time with you guys. but-'
They ignored me, They brought me to their place. I was scared.
They asked me to say embarrassing things. They told me that was all they wanted.
I followed their order.
However
They recorded my voice and threated that they are going to send the voice file and the link of my FA page to my parents.
Korean society is very conserve. and korean parents are like... ughh, I can't even explain. When I was in high school, I had to spend at least 16 hours for studying everyday.
...Going back to the main story, They threated me, I had no choice.
...They asked me to have sex with them.

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I resisted hard as much as I could, I think I hurted one of them.
Fortuantely, I escaped from their place.

I couldn't report them to the police because they had those file and link, even photos...
They kept threated me, saying they are going to send photos of me to everyone.

AND THEY SENT THEM TO MY FRIENDS.

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They insisted that I was the one who wanted to take the photos.
I thought nobody would believe it! because, I looked pretty sad and terrified in the photos, and- and.,.. I thought my friends would trust me.
But I was wrong.
My friends cursed me.
Some of them even told me that they couldn't trust me because I'm just a jerk who draws furry porns.

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My friends disappointed at me.
They decided to share every secrets that I had told them to find a good way to 'punish' me.
...I lost my boyfriend whom I still love.
...I lost every friends.

At the end
They told me that they were going to kill me (Some of them knew where I was living at...)

I reported them to the police, but I was kind of insane(literally) at that moment.
The police locked me up in the hospital because they thought I was crazy. (That was true at some points though.)

I had to spend over a 3 months in the hospital with fear that they might hurt my family while I was locked up in that stupid place

After all those 'punishments' and 'treatments'.
I changed my phonenumber, adrress, name, everything about me.

HOWEVER
They somehow found me,

They have still been harassing me.

I just trusted my friends
and I just wanted to be trusted by my friends.

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I had been alone.
I had lived in hell.

but then
I realized I shouldn't stop drawing.
I didn't do any wrong. My life shouldn't be stopped by them.
Right?

So I decided to get back to FA.
but I was scared.
Whatif nobody want me to be back?
Whatif nobody remembers me?

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I decided to send the notes to my watchers.
Because
I realized that I had never said thank you to them.

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Now
SEE

So many people have told me
WELCOME BACK.
I LOVE YOUR ARTS.
I WATCHED YOU.

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Thank you.
I feel so sorry that I can't express how thankful I feel right now because of the language barrier.

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감사합니다.
사랑합니다.
앞으로 더욱 열심히 하겠습니다.

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^^ ♥,,..