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Not drawing anymore (PLZ READ)
10 years ago
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Message from a voracious alien...
I won't draw anymore. Not because I don't want to, not because I'm not allowed to, but because I am mentally incapable.
I joined FA on the 6th of September, 2014. I enjoyed a few weeks of bliss as my parents knew nothing. Then they found out, that moment was extremely embarrassing. They mocked a bit, I think. It wasn't for months until it was resolved.
The entire time I was on FA, I knew I wasn't making any progress. I just didn't know why. Now the pieces have come together.
To see why I need to go back further. It was 4th grade, and I was excelling in every class, I was offered to take pre-algebra at the middle school, I ended up in algebra because I excelled so much. I even got the opportunity to skip the 5th grade, something nobody in my district had ever done. I whizzed by math classes, and eventually picked up computer programming, which was cool. I currently will take Calc III in a week or two, which is a community college course.
This has all led me to believe this is who I truly am, and try as I might, I cannot be artistic.
What does the future hold? Well, if I can't be creative, things looked slim. Then I found a career opportunity. So that issue has been solved.
What hasn't been solved, and I don't know if it ever will, is how I personally can become a better artist. I see so many aspiring artists, and I want to be like them, but my brain holds me back. I'm lonely.
I won't deactivate my account, I will remain an active member of the furry community, I just won't participate in it by drawing. I may ask for a commission someday.
I joined FA on the 6th of September, 2014. I enjoyed a few weeks of bliss as my parents knew nothing. Then they found out, that moment was extremely embarrassing. They mocked a bit, I think. It wasn't for months until it was resolved.
The entire time I was on FA, I knew I wasn't making any progress. I just didn't know why. Now the pieces have come together.
To see why I need to go back further. It was 4th grade, and I was excelling in every class, I was offered to take pre-algebra at the middle school, I ended up in algebra because I excelled so much. I even got the opportunity to skip the 5th grade, something nobody in my district had ever done. I whizzed by math classes, and eventually picked up computer programming, which was cool. I currently will take Calc III in a week or two, which is a community college course.
This has all led me to believe this is who I truly am, and try as I might, I cannot be artistic.
What does the future hold? Well, if I can't be creative, things looked slim. Then I found a career opportunity. So that issue has been solved.
What hasn't been solved, and I don't know if it ever will, is how I personally can become a better artist. I see so many aspiring artists, and I want to be like them, but my brain holds me back. I'm lonely.
I won't deactivate my account, I will remain an active member of the furry community, I just won't participate in it by drawing. I may ask for a commission someday.
I like your art style, even if you don't draw good there are some who'll like your art...
I will never be able to make the game I've always dreamed of making. :(
People have various strengths in areas of their lives and math is one of yours. If you love art too then PRACTICE, even doodle something daily. It took me over 15+ years to get to this point.
Don't verbally abuse yourself by comparing your art to the rest either. Instead embracing your unique style because it's YOUR style.
I also have a weird way of approaching "art" that nobody does.