-sighs-...

Someday I'll be posting a journal that is of a positive note, someday...

Not today...

I'll try to say this best I can but me being me, I will fuck up...

BEcuase I can't convey feelings to save my life...

I find out this morning that Damn Evil Dog has passed on...and it hurts quite a lot

I can only imagine what his friends and family are going through

Then again having lost people in my own family, I may not have to imagine much.

I had been aware of his health condition, but I had hoped against all that he would be able to pull through and make some kind of recovery. But ...no.

I wonder if I can say I was his friend, I had talked with him more than thrice on streams, but I suppose I never tried to go further than that becuase...

Becuase given how I can be a buzzkill, I didn't want to bring his mood down, and I can only be happy when legit, so when I did see him happy, I was happy.

He was someone whom in spite of what he had been facing, tried and did his best to presist, that and knowing more of what he had been going through.

I didn't want to bring his mood down...I wanted him to be happy, even though I had contributed percisely fuck-all

I'm sure how to express how I feel really...seems like I just screw up...

I'll simply say for now...

For all his friends and family, you have my sympathies and condolences for what they're worth...DeD...I hope you're at peace now...

...-sighs-

I can't help but think I'm weird for considering this song among others with my mood...