Till spring semester starts... don't think I'm gonna be able to get a laptop for my classes at this rate. I'm close to just giving up on everything, I can't do this on my own. I feel like a failure in life, that maybe everyone would be better off without me in their lives (not like anyone tries to keep me in their lives to begin with anyway) Wanted to try and be more active on here, but I've lost sight of the point and really don't seem to care to try anymore.