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I feel... lost?
10 years ago
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This is gonna be a bit of a rant. I need to get this out of my chest.
The company in which my apprenticeship took place scammed me. They claimed that apprentices don't get any salary, that the goverment will give them the amount of 1300$ to train me and that they would give it to me because they are so generous and because I really wanted to work there, I agreed to those terms. My apprenticeship started in october 2014. I never received anything from them. So, I kept calling them once every 2 months to remind them of my money. I decide enough is enough and even tho this is greece, a 9 month delay of a company that makes around 2.500.000$ annually is actually stupid. Turns out that everything was illegal, I should have received a payment of 2600$ while I was working there and that the money I am waiting for is basically a support to the company, to urge them to hire more apprenticeships (cheaper workers).
I went there and brought havoc. Fully informed, always polite and with a maturity that scared me. I rarely get this serious. I never had to. Turns out my money had been with them since september, but their evil, super mean accountant decided not to inform the boss of the company (Bullshit). Along side me, there were 6 other apprentices, of which a girl who was working 3 (THREE, FUCKING THREE) jobs at the same time. This money is some of the few I will ever make outside my family's business, so they mean alot to me, but they aren't crucial. For the rest of those guys and girls, that kind of money's an actual fortune and they need it to get by.
So Liz goes there, fucks up the accountant, talks with the boss, demands his money and even threatens with a law suit. Those fucks even lied to all of us about signing paper work and in one of those payments it's stated that we were receiving a proper salary (LOL).
This has me thinking. Of alot of things. I am generally a guy that thinks alot and acts too little but I am generally lost. I keep thinking of my future and for the first time ever, it's straightforward. No more studies, I have my national service to do in september and then who knows!? I feel I give too much of myself in my work and I have this tiny part of me that wishes I could one day stand toe to toe with the big names here (even worldwide, if the future allows it). But I keep thinking of everyone I know who has succeeded and they all took advantage of something. Lie to their coworkers and are ready to stab anyone in the back just for profit. Is that the only actual way for success?
I generally need a week off. Or two. I need a vacation and sadly I can't even get one. And when I ask for it, the reply I get "U are going at that con u wanted, in August" OuO huhu, I am going nuts.
I started scribbling again! I am also on the right track for my diet, even tho with all the moods I am having, I feel like I wanna ruin the asshole of a box of vanilla icecream while crying and watching a mexican soap opera in national TV!
The company in which my apprenticeship took place scammed me. They claimed that apprentices don't get any salary, that the goverment will give them the amount of 1300$ to train me and that they would give it to me because they are so generous and because I really wanted to work there, I agreed to those terms. My apprenticeship started in october 2014. I never received anything from them. So, I kept calling them once every 2 months to remind them of my money. I decide enough is enough and even tho this is greece, a 9 month delay of a company that makes around 2.500.000$ annually is actually stupid. Turns out that everything was illegal, I should have received a payment of 2600$ while I was working there and that the money I am waiting for is basically a support to the company, to urge them to hire more apprenticeships (cheaper workers).
I went there and brought havoc. Fully informed, always polite and with a maturity that scared me. I rarely get this serious. I never had to. Turns out my money had been with them since september, but their evil, super mean accountant decided not to inform the boss of the company (Bullshit). Along side me, there were 6 other apprentices, of which a girl who was working 3 (THREE, FUCKING THREE) jobs at the same time. This money is some of the few I will ever make outside my family's business, so they mean alot to me, but they aren't crucial. For the rest of those guys and girls, that kind of money's an actual fortune and they need it to get by.
So Liz goes there, fucks up the accountant, talks with the boss, demands his money and even threatens with a law suit. Those fucks even lied to all of us about signing paper work and in one of those payments it's stated that we were receiving a proper salary (LOL).
This has me thinking. Of alot of things. I am generally a guy that thinks alot and acts too little but I am generally lost. I keep thinking of my future and for the first time ever, it's straightforward. No more studies, I have my national service to do in september and then who knows!? I feel I give too much of myself in my work and I have this tiny part of me that wishes I could one day stand toe to toe with the big names here (even worldwide, if the future allows it). But I keep thinking of everyone I know who has succeeded and they all took advantage of something. Lie to their coworkers and are ready to stab anyone in the back just for profit. Is that the only actual way for success?
I generally need a week off. Or two. I need a vacation and sadly I can't even get one. And when I ask for it, the reply I get "U are going at that con u wanted, in August" OuO huhu, I am going nuts.
I started scribbling again! I am also on the right track for my diet, even tho with all the moods I am having, I feel like I wanna ruin the asshole of a box of vanilla icecream while crying and watching a mexican soap opera in national TV!
As for success, lying, backstabbing, etc. might often at least appear help with that in a financial sense, but at the same time there's a cost for everything. Even ignoring the chance of getting caught (which would definitely not end well), there's the cost to your character and so forth. I'd suggest thinking about what you eventually want in life and what kind of a person you want to be, and working from there.
And don't think that honest labor and hard work don't get you anywhere, either. You can definitely get somewhere with those, it just takes time.
If nothing else, though, I woul dsay that, as much as I like seeing yiu active in the community, and, hopefully, having a good time doing things in it, and out of it, yiu have every right to take a complete break from any online thing yiu need a break from.
If the pressure, or the drama, or the comments, or anything really is getting to you, turning off the wifi, getting out of the house/town for a few days, staying of social sites, whatever you have or want to do, you deserve to be able to, and shouldn't have to deal with any slack about doing so.
Your health, mental, emotional, and spiritual, as well as physical, are all incredibly important, and you don't owe it to fans, friends, or commentors to put those in neglect.
Please, take care of yourself, and if you need some time away, please take it, and hopefully you can come back refreshed and renewed with your troubles sorted out and being happier.
Hopefully it won't take long for you all to get your just pay, and retribution pay on top of it, and hopefully you'll be abel to do some soul searching and figure out if you want to be "successful" like the others you're looking at, and how you want to get there, if you do, or if you want to be successful in your own way, by your own terms, and what those terms are, as well as what means you must take for them.
I'll be pulling for you, and I really do want you to and hope that you can take your vacation, whatever and wherever it is, and enjoy it so, and not be bothered with those like you mentioned in your comment,