I can't believe it's been almost a year since my self-imposed hiatus from the fandom. I'm not sure how many people will see this or if you will even read this, but apparently in my 9 months away I've garnered more watchers... Thank you, I guess? ^^; Now, the purpose of my hiatus was to do some soul searching and get my life on track. Well, in IRL news:

* I lost my old merchandising job and got a new one with more hours and better pay.
* My desktop computer died and I've been using my mother's laptop which may or may not be slowly dying...
* I hated and then grew to love the latest Doctor
* I became an addict of the Skylander series...

Now, the soul searching part of my hiatus was supposed to consist of me gathering my thoughts and FINALLY getting the backstory, bio, and personality of Tailswisher finished as well as putting together a draft of my story/book idea: Wayward. However, my brain decided to turn off all creative juices and I've not been able to do a single piece of art, photography, or even a tidbit of literature.

Instead, I feel as though this may have had the opposite affect upon me as I've begun to question myself:

* Am I a disappointment to my parents?
* What am I doing with my life?
* Why do I still only have the same 3 friends I had a year ago? (by that I mean why haven't I made new ones)
* Is Tailswisher really me or is shi a incredibly incorrect portrayal of myself?
* Do I belong in the fandom anymore?
* Do I contribute anything or am I just wasting other's talents and time?
* Why do I always feel so alone?

I'm sure some of you who were around last year remember the terrible depression I fell into when I was isolated in my room all the time. I'm in no denial that with the return of winter comes my depression as I've certainly felt it gnawing away at me over the last few weeks.

To try and combat my loneliness, I've scoured over the internet and my new phone's apps desperately searching for a social website/app that could connect me with people nearby only to encounter the same problem I've found every other time: there's no one within hours of me. Why is it so hard to make new friends?

Anyway, I've resorted to contacting a few "self help" pages on Facebook (the only place I could get advice) and they recommended opening up and venting. I've certainly vented and I feel that sometimes that's all I do. So, I'd rather spare you guys. I'd instead like to just start talking with people again.

So, I'd like people to recommend any phone apps you use to communicate with friends or websites that I can use to make new friends or just talk with you fine people. Feel free to message me if you'd like, though comments are fine, too.