who am i kidding? ....i cant leave fa and never come back; what am i gonna do for porn? x.x

i have decided i need to put down my kitty cat alter ego for good .....im not sure yet by hnging or firing squad, but i really want x fucking dead and buried. im thinking maybe if i created a "character" instead of "having a fursona", i could just splash around in the kiddie pool again like i did in the good ol days instead of taking myself too seriously. IRC used to be endless fun back in like 2004-2006. i went onto furnet not too long ago to take its pulse, and as far as i could tell, it was dead dead dead. in the last few years, i hvent even found anyone who wants to yiff roleplay anymore; wtf happened with tht, yo? im a hot bitchy catboi inna pink skirt, for fucks sake. XP does anyone even do that shit anymore? o.o meh.

i will always be feline at heart that will never change. for now, i will have to be a fandom of 1.





thanks to the really nice aminal people who said nice things to me whenn 9i had my little crisis - all my little crises, for that matter. i have been surrounded by so much death and its been a catalyst for change. or maybe thats not it at all. i dont know . i just lost one a few hours ago, as a matter of fact: a close one.......but i digress.


to you pawful or so of awesome people: i will let you know who or what or where i am once im finished burning this shit down and building something fresh. <3

to certain others among you: eat shit.

to the rest of you: peace and love~


~ben