and I apologized for my part in us all going way overboard last night. I got to thinking while I was talking with her through text and I came to think about the things I said and did and realized that I really do not like who I become when I get severely depressed and let the negative rule me. It is not who I want to be. Not by any stretch of hte imagination. The glimpses you hafve all seen of the me that is a joy to talk to and isn't in a bad mood. That is who I really am. that is who I always have been. As a result of this, I came to the decision that that is what I am going to do. Instead of focusing on the negatives, I am going to try to let things go more often and focus on more positive things. While it is easy to see how one could arrive at the conclusion that life has just dealt me a shitty hand, that kind of thinking will not get my anywhere. I am going to do my best to stay positive and focused as well as working harder than ever before to find a job. If living here has taught me anything, it is that I even more so want to get out on my own. I just want to do it with atleast one room mate so I am not alone. Anyway,. Yeah. I am going to try to be more positive, and IU know that won't be easy at first. I ask you all to bear with me and understand that I am trying if I slip. Thank you for your time. IC, Zel,. Red and Kix, I want to try again from the start with all of you so you can know who I really am instead of what focusing on the negative tends to turn me into.

MEME TIME

1) Who are you?
2) Are we friends?
3) When and how did we meet?
4) Would you kiss me?
5) Give me a nickname and explain why.
6) Describe me in 1 word.
7) What was your first impression of me?
8) Do you still think the same?
9) What reminds you of me?
10) If you could give me anything, what would it be?
11) How well do you know me?
12) Are you gonna put this in your journal and see what I say about you?
13) Would you meet up with me?

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[ ] Push me into a wall and kiss me?
[ ] Come To My House To Do Nothing But Chill?
[ ] Slap Me?
[ ] Have Hard Core Sex With Me?
[ ] Slap Me If I Asked You To?
[ ] Lick/Suck My Neck?
[ ] Let Me Lick/Suck Your Neck?
[ ] Watch A Movie With Me?
[ ] Take Me Out To Dinner?
[ ] Take A Shower With Me?
[ ] Take Me Home For The Night?
[ ] Let Me Sleep In Your Bed?
[ ] Let Me Sleep In Your Bed (With You)?
[ ] Take Me Anywhere With You?
[ ] Repost This For Me To Answer Your Questions?
[ ] Lock Me In Your room And Take Advantage Of Me?
[ ] Let me lock you in your room and Take Advantage of you?
[ ] Make me breakfast?
[ ] Tickle Me?
[ ] Let Me Tickle You?
[ ] Stick Up For Me If Someone Was Being Mean to Me?
[ ] Instant Message Me?
[ ]Greet Me In Public?
[ ] Hang Out With Me?
[ ] Hold my waist from behind while we are out?
[ ] Bring Me Around Your Friends?

Do You...
[ ] Miss Me?
[ ] Love Me?
[ ] Think I'm Hot?
[ ] Think I'm Cute?
[ ] Think I'm Ok?
[ ] Think I'm Ugly?
[ ] Want To Kiss Me?
[ ] Want To Cuddle With Me?
[ ] Want To Date Me?
[ ] Want To Love Me?

Am I...
[ ] Sweet?
[ ] Funny?
[ ] Cool?
[ ] lovable?
[ ] Adorable?
[ ] Great To Be With?
[ ] Attractive?
[ ] Mean?

Have You Ever...
[ ] Thought About Hooking Up With Me?
[ ] Found Yourself Wanting To Kiss Me?
[ ] Wished I Were There?
[ ] Had A Crush On Me?
[ ] Wanted My Number?
[ ] Had A Dream About Me?
[ ] Been Distracted By Me?
[ ] Thought About Fucking Me?

Are You...
[ ] Happy You Know Me?
[ ] Thinking About Me?
[ ] My Friend