I'm reaching a difficult part in my life, for a while now I have been contemplating leaving my job here in Indiana, and moving back to Nebraska. First off I hate the store I work at and the managers I work under; I'm constantly sick of being yelled at for doing my job, I'm tired of third shift placing all of their woes and worries on first and second shift just because they can't do their own jobs. I had looked at getting another job while I was out here, but everything that paid more than what I was making at the time were not hiring, or at least demanded you need x-amount of college in, or x-amount of experience under the belt to do specific jobs, and not wanting to start back down at minimum wage I decided to stick with the job I have since I'll be going to $10 an hour here in another month, just that I don't want to be at this store any longer.

Secondly, and I will admit this, I am homesick. I miss my family and friends back home in Nebraska.

Third, the past month or so now I've been having this gut-feeling that something awful is going to happen back home. Usually when I get this feeling it always comes to pass, and never for the better. I worry about my family constantly, especially my grandfather who turned 93 last November, yes granted he is in relatively good health for his age, that's not to say something wouldn't turn around on him, and he's the only surviving grandparent I have left. Hoping and praying that nothing bad happens to him.

Fourth, as much as I love my mate and how happy I am to finally be with him I don't want to leave him behind. I'm happy to be with Inola, but I don't want to just leave him behind here in Indiana, but I really cannot take him back home with me as I would be moving back in with my parents until I found a place of my own. Once I got on my own two feet again I would very much love to send for him, and bring him back with me.

Unfortunately I cannot go back home so soon, I have to talk to personnel and get a transfer back home, I have vehicle repairs I need done before they get any worse than what they already are, and I am nearly broke at the moment to pay for repairs.

Just hitting a major bump in my life right now, just needing some encouraging words, or thoughts from anyone right now, because right now I am going stir-crazy at the moment.