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The Mask. Long Journal
10 years ago
Before I begin this journal, I want you to realize that this is MY view MY opinion on this subject. I respect everyone's rights to do what they want and I won't judge others for not sharing my ideas or opinions. That being said here we go.
The Mask
So for a long time I've always been a certain way. I've always been protective of myself and my personal life and just my person in general.
I see people who come out of the closet about all things and tell people that "This is who I am and I'm proud of it" and think to myself if what they did was really necessary.
Some people I think feel that they need to let the world know who they are in order to accept themselves for who they are. That they need other people to know who or what they are in order to feel accepted and loved. But a lot of the time I see rifts being created in the wake of outing ones self to friends, family, co-workers and the public in general. Because not only does this obviously change people's opinions of you for better or worse, but it also causes people to pre-emptivly judge you without even getting to know you ( also for better or worse). And by that I mean that people may steer clear of you or talk badly of you because of who/what you are and also people you may not like or want to get to know may all the sudden try to get to know you once you've told them who you are because they are the same or think they have similar interests.
For me......I like my mask. I like knowing the feeling that the people around me don't know who i really am or what I am into. It gives me the comfort in knowing i don't have to worry about being silently judged for things that they don't understand and probably never will or try to understand. Not only does it give me that comfort, it also keeps people I don't want knowing or being associated with coming up to me and trying to form a relationship based on common ground without knowing who they are or what they are about first.
My mask is my shield and my rock. My closest friends are all those who worked to get to know me and who I am and what I am about and what I am Into. Only those who have shown me that they are interested in ME for ME get to know whats under the mask. Because I know that if they have worked to get to know me that they won't judge me so quickly or with blatant disregaurd to my feelings. It takes time and devotion to get to know someone that close and if you take that time, you won't be quick to throw a relationship away because of people's differences.
Being another face in the crowd does not upset or bother me in anyway. It allows me to live my life without feeling that there are people out there who don't like me for the things I enjoy or like. Or what I am.
I like my mask.....but if you want to get to know me, you need to show me that you want to know me for who I am and not what I am or what I'm into and only then will I take my mask off for you...
The Mask
So for a long time I've always been a certain way. I've always been protective of myself and my personal life and just my person in general.
I see people who come out of the closet about all things and tell people that "This is who I am and I'm proud of it" and think to myself if what they did was really necessary.
Some people I think feel that they need to let the world know who they are in order to accept themselves for who they are. That they need other people to know who or what they are in order to feel accepted and loved. But a lot of the time I see rifts being created in the wake of outing ones self to friends, family, co-workers and the public in general. Because not only does this obviously change people's opinions of you for better or worse, but it also causes people to pre-emptivly judge you without even getting to know you ( also for better or worse). And by that I mean that people may steer clear of you or talk badly of you because of who/what you are and also people you may not like or want to get to know may all the sudden try to get to know you once you've told them who you are because they are the same or think they have similar interests.
For me......I like my mask. I like knowing the feeling that the people around me don't know who i really am or what I am into. It gives me the comfort in knowing i don't have to worry about being silently judged for things that they don't understand and probably never will or try to understand. Not only does it give me that comfort, it also keeps people I don't want knowing or being associated with coming up to me and trying to form a relationship based on common ground without knowing who they are or what they are about first.
My mask is my shield and my rock. My closest friends are all those who worked to get to know me and who I am and what I am about and what I am Into. Only those who have shown me that they are interested in ME for ME get to know whats under the mask. Because I know that if they have worked to get to know me that they won't judge me so quickly or with blatant disregaurd to my feelings. It takes time and devotion to get to know someone that close and if you take that time, you won't be quick to throw a relationship away because of people's differences.
Being another face in the crowd does not upset or bother me in anyway. It allows me to live my life without feeling that there are people out there who don't like me for the things I enjoy or like. Or what I am.
I like my mask.....but if you want to get to know me, you need to show me that you want to know me for who I am and not what I am or what I'm into and only then will I take my mask off for you...
Ok, that really got long for an example. My point is, sometimes that mask is necessary because other people don't need to know every intimate detail of your life and who you are on the inside. Other times the mask comes in the way of letting others get to know and judge the true person that you are, while the mask would only make them assume that you aren't all those things that they don't know, understand, or agree with. It's a judgment call for how much that mask is taken down for who, but for issues that really don't matter, a person shouldn't have it behind a mask to begin with.