I don't like a quiet house, and not having internet is killing me on the inside. No background noise when I'm working on schoolwork or cooking, or even on commissions makes it hard to focus and not feel a little anxious. I'm sure I'm not the only one who gets like this, but I'm sure a lot of you love having peace and quiet to work and think. For me, it's always like, a situational thing. If I'm angry or just too lethargic to do anything, I'll settle down and nestle up in my bed and just think. Eventually I'll fall asleep and things will be right as rain. Though if I'm in good humor i find it difficult to enjoy the silence. It's a hard balance to find.

I may just be used to living in a chaotic atmosphere though. I remember when I was living with my parents, or in the dorm halls, there was always some sort of noise. Whether it was the sound of frogs in the middle of the night, or hearing people screaming and carrying on through the day. Those were the only times i really enjoyed any peace and quiet. But, that might be because of all the noise and people i dealt with. Today for example, all I've done really is go to class, study, and return home. I visited with friends and all that, had a good time, but when I came home (now) It's just dead silence. Like, i don't even need to be social, just some kind of background noise, like a youtube video or something to just fill in the empty space. Maybe it has something to do with the fact that I'm around people I like? I really don't know. It throws me off something fierce though. I have no idea why it puts me on edge, but it does.

Honestly I have no idea why I'm even posting this journal, it's not like I'm announcing commissions or anything. I guess it's just nice to put my thoughts out there. Either or, what do you prefer? Noisy atmospheres or quiet ones?