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Ten Years
10 years ago
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All we want is a headrush
All we want is to get out of our skin for a while
All we want is to get out of our skin for a while
A little over ten years ago, I swore to never get into another long-distance relationship. Something wasn't clicking or I was just too immature to hold a steady relationship. Either way, it had gotten to the point where I was fed up and decided, at the very least, to just take a break from trying to make long-distance stuff work.
A little while later, a good friend of mind asked if I was interested in trying just such a relationship with him. Reluctantly, I declined. My gut reaction to his question was to say yes, but I wanted to stick to my plan. No more long-distance relationships. No more trying to make that stupid garbage work. The phone calls, the constant worry of infidelity. Enough was enough. So I let him know I wasn't looking for anything at the moment.
Later I found out he had started going out with my recent ex-boyfriend, and the jealousy mode switch kicked into overdrive.
For days I lamented to my friends that I was an idiot for letting this opportunity slip through my fingers. The friend was witty, charming, had a biting humor, and was, for the most part into everything I was. I prepared myself for the worst eventuality: that I lost my chance forever to give a relationship I really wanted a chance.
About a month later, the friend broke up with my Ex.
Ten years ago exactly, February 7th, that friend got a hold of me on AIM and asked, in the more sincerest way possible, in a way NOBODY had ever approached me before, if I wanted to try a relationship with them. I immediately said yes, and answered the most important question of my life.
:icon ebasslun: is one of the sweetest, funniest, and headstrong people I've ever met. Ten years have gone by and thankfully the majority of them have been with us living together. No matter what stupid, short-sighted things I've done, no matter how much I've lost my temper at little, inconsequential things, no matter how many times I've started fights that I shouldn't have, at the end of every day I went to bed with a person I've always been happy to call my mate, my boyfriend, and my fiance (and, if I can get off my ass about it, my husband).
Happy Anniversary, my dear. May we have many, many more in the future.
A little while later, a good friend of mind asked if I was interested in trying just such a relationship with him. Reluctantly, I declined. My gut reaction to his question was to say yes, but I wanted to stick to my plan. No more long-distance relationships. No more trying to make that stupid garbage work. The phone calls, the constant worry of infidelity. Enough was enough. So I let him know I wasn't looking for anything at the moment.
Later I found out he had started going out with my recent ex-boyfriend, and the jealousy mode switch kicked into overdrive.
For days I lamented to my friends that I was an idiot for letting this opportunity slip through my fingers. The friend was witty, charming, had a biting humor, and was, for the most part into everything I was. I prepared myself for the worst eventuality: that I lost my chance forever to give a relationship I really wanted a chance.
About a month later, the friend broke up with my Ex.
Ten years ago exactly, February 7th, that friend got a hold of me on AIM and asked, in the more sincerest way possible, in a way NOBODY had ever approached me before, if I wanted to try a relationship with them. I immediately said yes, and answered the most important question of my life.
:icon ebasslun: is one of the sweetest, funniest, and headstrong people I've ever met. Ten years have gone by and thankfully the majority of them have been with us living together. No matter what stupid, short-sighted things I've done, no matter how much I've lost my temper at little, inconsequential things, no matter how many times I've started fights that I shouldn't have, at the end of every day I went to bed with a person I've always been happy to call my mate, my boyfriend, and my fiance (and, if I can get off my ass about it, my husband).
Happy Anniversary, my dear. May we have many, many more in the future.
So glad you got that second chance and took it!