And it SOMEHOW had a happy ending (probably)
I'll make this extremely short and simple.
Things have been kinda going up and down for me over the last couple years. A lot of down, really. And I've kinda barely managed to cling to the life I have and avoid having my entire future being destroyed.
My mood has been up and down even more than that, though; I haven't let a lot of people know about it.. not anyone, really. I've offered little hints here and there, but I never felt comfortable talking about it, and still don't.
But basically, another opportunity presented itself for my life to either be greatly improved and offer me a wonderful chance, or to be ruined completely and fuck me over wayyyy more than should happen to any single person who's done anything less than some terrible crime against humanity.
And... it was looking like things were going well for a while, and yesterday it got to the point where I had to really start worrying that it might not go so well... and today things got even worse. A lot worse; I'd basically completely given up, everything seemed to have come up to this one moment where I was literally one tiny little step from getting what I wanted, or having all that good turned against me to make the bad end even worse.
It came down to time. And in a process that's been lasting over a few months (this particular part of it, anyway) I had to sort out the final details within the last 14 minutes before it all came officially crashing down on me.
I thought it was all hopeless, but I got just one last phone call with barely enough time to spare and I was able to get everything done with less than a minute left.
That's not an exaggeration.
Literally less than a minute between getting what I wanted/needed, or losing thousands and thousands of dollars and wasting the last 3+ years of my life and everything I and my family and a good few other people have been working for and quite possibly ruining any chance of being with my family here in Australia again.

So

It's not nearly enough to say that I was stressed to the point that I thought my heart was going to just give up.
And it's not nearly enough to say that I felt so relieved when that near-miracle happened and I just BARELY managed to do what I needed to in time.

I can't tell you guys how important this was or how I've been feeling. I can't say if everything is going to go well from this point. But I can tell you that my life took an extremely positive turn today, when I felt the most defeated and beaten down and used up for no reason, like everything had piled up specifically to come to the worst possible outcome that it could've been... and it didn't.
By some miracle, it didn't.


Don't give up, guys.
If things are looking bad, don't give up until it's over, even if there are only seconds on the clock, don't you dare give up.
You never know... it might just be enough.