Soooooooo, Today of all days the start of what could have been a great weekend turned into a verbal soul and ass raping.

My mom decides its once again time for the family chat of how much I am letting them down and reminding me that I am the family embarrassment. Telling me that I'm a loser because I am having a hard time finding good paying work, and that the fandom is the reason Im so fucked up and the way I am, that I should feel horrible for putting my family threw all this.

I so hurt I feel hollowed out. I tried explaining that the fandoms not all about sex and that if she could only see the beauty that I see in some of the talented artist here on FA that she would agree. But my god she's so righteous in her own hypocrisy that she is blind to anyone else's point of view. But no she refuses to open her mind and has given me demands.

So if I am not online after 11pm I'm sorry.
I need to focus on finding a job.
and I will try my best to keep the fandom alive and in my heart.
But knowing her she will keep throwing irl things in my way to keep me under her control.

I love you all, you are my real family, send me a note for my email, Skype me often.