On a restless night
Thinking the same old thoughts

Kicking old shoes around

Wanting to stumble on solutions

But life is never

So simple as to help

It gives you things

What you need most often

But the single things

That mean infinitely more than

What it can provide

Are always impossibly far away

Things that should be

Simple and easy to enjoy

Become complicated and sad

Ideas that were once beautiful

Sour like old fruit



I feel such brittle frustration

Teetering between anger, sadness

Why am I continually punished?

For holding my values

I will not let culture

A quagmire of broken signals

Break my spirit forever

But it becomes so hard

To smile when change

Seems like a legend

Every day is like yesterday

I want a disruption

A happy change to break

This old tired routine

Instead I am dashed against

The rocks of reality

Unless I abandon my hope

I’ll never be able

To find anything in here



My heart tells me

To be strong now

That maybe things will change

But I wonder if it

Really knows how things are

Or if it has

Long since been disconnected from

The reality of this

Culture that doesn’t seem to

Remember what it means

To really care earnestly

About anyone beyond their reflection

My soul is tired

A roller coaster of hope

Only to end again

In sorry and miserable disappointment

Seems hardly worth effort

I’d like a change please

Surely I’ve earned this

Somehow my countless sorrows must

Have earned me boon

Unseen river flowing without direction

Have pity on me

Your faithful and stalwart traveler

My head is heavy

My heart pains me eternally

Ease this distressing burden

Guide me just this once