Baby we've been through it before
This same old shaky state
Maybe to you its nothing harsh
Just another game to play
But as always I find that
You steal my calm away
Idealism rises on stiff creaking knees
To give me melancholy hope
But as always I know that
Like always I overthink things
I care too much, too soon
Maybe to you its nothing
But to me its certainly something
Maybe I'd like you think
That I was someone worth something
But something tells me sadly
That that just isn't your way
I'd like to keep hope
But all it does is hurt
I'm used to this feeling
But I won't seek it out
So to you maybe this
Is just a placeholder for someone
But if you're truly kind
Be my benzo this time around
Sedate these old melancholy thoughts
Prove me wrong with eager smiles
Be the medicine I need
Rather than the poison I have

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