Stress. I wake up to it. I wade through it all day. I go to bed to it. Its always there now, always here, always everywhere. I don't know what to do. All online activity has to stop, including FA, Tumblr, streaming, youtube, skype, steam, and such. But ive also got a ton of work to do. Microbiology, Organic chemistry 2, both classes i don't have a clue what im doing in them, and they're my most important classes. Im behind on assignments in all of my classes. Ive begun not turning in assignments because i try to catch up with things but i fail to. Now i just feel perpetually lethargic, tired, worthless, hopeless, along with a headache on the sides of my head for some reason. I just can't do anything, i just don't have any energy to, or willpower either. I smiled maybe once today, when it was raining. Of course, so many other things are going wrong that that smile faded away as soon as it came. One of my teachers was nice to me and let me out of my music lessons class so i could go talk to a counselor. He really cares. So i go to the counselor's office, and turns out i can't get a freaking appointment until Thursday afternoon (today is Monday) So I'm supposed to suffer until then? What am i supposed to do? I don't know what to do. I feel useless in my own life and now im questioning every part of my being. Myself, my self worth, my hopes, my goals, my dreams, my "skills", and all that junk. I don't feel in control of anything, and im just tired. I can't sleep well at night anymore, i always wake up in the middle of it sweating. In the mornings i don't even want to get out of bed. Sometimes i don't want to eat. I don't know what it is i want anymore. So yeah, bye for now...