I'm sitting here watching something on SPEED channel. Feeling like a worthless piece of shit.Feeling like no body gives a shit about me. Feeling like maybe I should put "Rycher Maxx" on hold for a while and just be "Joe". Feeling like leaving the "fandom". Feeling like dissapearing. Feeling like crying. From losing my beloved pet otter. I miss him soo much.http://www.furaffinity.net/user/ginyuugure/ The pain is so great,it hurts worse than losing any of my Ex's.Feeling like throwing in the towel and giving up on finding a mate,finding a pet,on life in general.I know i am going to get all kind of shit from some of the heartless asshats on here,But I dont give a fuck. These are the thoughts and feelings and ramblings of a heartbroken sheppy. I want to thank all my friends who have supported me the past few days.Specially my best friend Stitch,and my buddy down in Ohio,Toyo.Cause without them,I wouldnt be able to handle this shit. To all that read this with a caring heart ,thank you very much.To all you heartless bastards.......FUCK YOU!!!!.

Thanks for listening................RYCHER "Joe" MAXX