(WARNING: Big wall of text ahead. XD)

First, I want to say thanks to those who've watched me and have faved my
art. I truly do appreciate it and hope you continue to like my work. I do,
also, feel that I have been very inactive and lazy as an artist, hobby or
not (and I feel like part of that laziness is , and I feel like I could be doing better as an artist, in quality AND
quantity. I don't intend for this journal to sound whiney, but there are
some things that I have been thinking about and feel that I need to put out
there, and I apologize in advance if it comes out sounding whiney.

So, I've been drawing for about three years now, and I feel that over those three
years, I've improved considerably from when I first started. And I'm still
improving. But nowadays, I've been looking back at the reason I started
drawing. I saw so much amazing art from so many people, and it inspired me
to compose art of my own. It's been a fun hobby for me, and still is, but
I've been thinking to myself, maybe I want this to be a bigger part of me
than just a hobby. Maybe not necessarily a primary occupation, but
something a bit bigger than a hobby. Maybe do some commissions,
collaborations, etc. I truly feel like I have the potential to do so, given that
a very considerable amount of polish is in order. However. I don't quite know where or
how to start. More accurately I've started by drawing and building up a
small number of watchers, but I don't know how to expand on it.

I've been comparing myself to those of artists that I watch, in terms of our
quality and quantity of art, number of watchers and views, etc. What I've
generally noticed is that they seem to be more well-known. And I ask myself
what is it that I can do to make myself well-known. Is there more to it
than simply posting your work to several websites? Maybe I could try
expanding my horizons with sites like Tumblr or Facebook? Maybe composing
more fanart, holding raffles, engaging in art
trades? buying commissions could possibly help, as well. Hell... Maybe I'm just thinking too hard about it.

One thing is for certain, though, I need to find my niche and work on
improving my artistic ability and repertoire, which is to include capturing
an image from different angles, production speed, working on body structure, lighting,
objects, scenery, so on. I'm sure some tutorials or art guide books will
help. All that being said, I've decided to actually make a New Year's
Resolution for 2016, and work toward bettering myself as an artist, and be
more active and organized as one, as well.

Well, I have quite a bit to think about, and time waits for no potato, and just
felt like I needed to put all those thoughts out there. To be honest, I
feel a bit lighter after doing so. Once again, I want thank those who watch
and faved my art. Even on a tiny stepping stone, it really does mean
something to me. And if you took the time read this entire journal, thanks
for hearing me out, too. ^^

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Oh yeah, also, I just recently finished a month of night shift at my job. I lost so much sleep and energy, I felt like I was seriously loosing life force. Like, there were times when I would come home and not even have the will to watch a fluffing YouTube video, it was so bad. XD But I'm back working during the day now, so I should be more able to do stuff. I'm way more energized and peppy, and all the mental clutter's been cleared up. To think it took three weeks for me to actually finish this journal. I hate night shift. ^^;