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RIP Athena, Surgery, Recovery and more!
10 years ago
General
I'd forgot how to daydream
So consumed with the wrong things, but in
The dark, I realized this life is short
And deep down, I'm still a child
Playful eyes, wide and wild, I can't
Lose hope, what's left of my heart's still made of gold! 1. Athena
Well, I guess now is a good a time as ever to post that I lost a piece of my soul on February 29th (Havoc's 4th birthday). Many of you have seen pictures of Athena, and many of you watched her grow up. It is with a heavy heart that I'm writing that she crossed over the Rainbow Bridge either late that night or early in the morning. She passed away in her sleep, and while it gives me some peace of mind, I am still so very heart broken (which is why it is so hard for me to write this, even now). This dog was here for me through everything....she was such a bright light to everyone she met. She didn't have a mean bone in her body and she was always happy to meet new people. Every single person who met her fell in love with her and my life will be forever changed by her lessons. I know I can say without a shadow of a doubt she was THE dog who taught me that patience is a virtue. Even at nearly ten years old she was still doing things she knew she shouldn't. Now I won't call her a "Marley", but she was close to it, haha. I'm going to miss seeing that little wagging nub every time she saw me...and I'm going to miss seeing that goofy bounce she did every time she heard food hitting and bowl. Rest easy and fly high baby girl, I'm going to miss you so, so much. I love you to the moon and back.
May we meet again.
2. Surgery
I know I haven't said much about this because it is extremely person to me, and not a thing I wanted to use to garner pity out of anyone. Yesterday, March 3rd, I underwent a Hysteroscopy* (for polyps in my uterus) and Laparoscopic Ovarian Cystectomy* cyst removal from my left Ovary. As I said I tried to keep quiet about this because it was a big surgery and there was a lot of risk involved with doing it. (Mostly because of my weight if I'm honest.) But all in all the surgery went REALLY well and lasted about an hour and half and bambi and my aunt were there to make sure everything went okay (as was demiure in spirit!). My doctor did a fabulous job and I couldn't be more happy (plus I got 3 REALLY REALLY cute tummy incisions and I love them and I hope they scar up stick around, LOL) I also got the celebrity treatment at the hospital because my aunt worked at this hospital for 40+ years. So they all took very good care of me. Even with me being grumpy af from lack of sleep the night before and just...being in a little pain. Thankfully, with this being my very first surgery....I think it went swimmingly!
Hysteroscopy - a procedure that allows your doctor to look inside your uterus in order to diagnose and treat causes of abnormal bleeding (I had been having irregular and very heavy periods).
Laparoscopic Ovarian Cystectomy - Ovarian cyst removal is surgery to remove a cyst or cysts from one or both of your ovaries. A laparoscopic surgery uses small incisions and specialized tools.
3. Recovery
Recovery is probably going to be the biggest bummer. I can't really do anything fun for 2/3 weeks depending on how my body heals. They gave me some gr8 pain pills and some ibuprofen to help with the pain, which honestly has been minimal? I feel like I'm cramping and that's about it. SO A+ DOCTORS GOOD JOB. Through all this though, I will try to work on some art and I will be doing a ton of gaming bc....that's what nerds do, right? I will try to be active on here though, even though I am going to be sleeping a lot.... I'll bully bambi to make me get up and do things...since they said just laying in bed all day would be a bad idea...because I could get a Pulmonary embolism*.
Pulmonary embolism - A condition in which one or more arteries in the lungs become blocked by a blood clot.
4. And More
So, if you follow me on twitter, you know I quit my job a while back due to being heavily bullied and targeted by my manager. I was going into panic attacks regularly after work and the thought of having to go to work gave me such bad anxiety I was getting myself physically sick. My immune system was so shot in the time I worked there, that it took me over a month to get rid of bronchitis on full antibiotics. SO, that being said I had made plans to go to FWA and I do not want to cancel those, technically I can't. The room is in my name and the money for said room has been transferred and I really do not want to miss out on this con because this is going to be one of the only chances I get to see my best friends. (Looking at you two demiure and kiv ). I would say Lila but SHE'S HERE NOW. :P So I am going to be opening up my paypal for donations. I physically am not ale to get a job for another month, so it'll be after FWA that I can even work again due to the surgery. (The job I do requires heavy lifting which I have been prohibited from.) So, while I cannot promise I will be doing artwork for those who donate, I can certainly try. Just send me a note with the donation linking me to a reference sheet and I will do what I can! So thank you anyone in advance who donates and thank you all for being there for me and sending such good vibes. I would also like to mention that any donation given will be going towards FWA only because my animals are taken care of. They have plenty of food and they are all caught up on shots/flea prevention/heart worm prevention. (:
http://paypal.me/bordurcollie
^ for any donations!
Thank you guys so much for reading and for all the get well wishes I have already received! 
All the best and a speedy recovery <3
I don't talk to you much but I do think of you quite a bit girly.
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