I'm really sorry to hear that you have to go through all that, you don't deserve such treatment, man

Have you talked about this with any friends? Maybe venting will help you feel better for a while, I apologize if you already did and didn't help much, wish there was something that could be done to help you, man.

It might not mean much, but I can sympathize when it comes to dads that make you feel worthless like that. Mine is the same way.
I know it's hard as hell, but y'gotta keep going, because you're worth more than what he says and/or does to you. Keep going to spite him, prove you're better than what he says. If it really comes down to it, leave (if/when you're able to) or get him out of your life, instead of getting yourself out of his!

I would love to leave him behind, knowing how much of a crybaby he is.

I'm really sorry to hear that, but don't give up. It may seem hopeless.

You only get one life, maddeku, don't waste it...
Can't you move out (with a friend) or something? You don't deserve such treatment, no-one does, so...
Surely there's something you can do.

That would be an impossible thing to do, i would have to leave college to get a full time job where i'll only get paid about 50 dollars per week, i can't make a living out of that when things are nearly as expensive here in mexico as it is in the united states.

Well, talk to teachers, or other respectable adults. They want to help! And if they can't find a way to help majorly, then they'll at least do something. But it's better if you get it out there and tell everyone than just sitting down and taking it. Move away anywhere, even consider living with relatives who also feel the same way about your father.

Trust me, I can't stand my father either. He hasn't given me a gift for X-mas or my birthday, and was out drinking those nights too. So I am arranging to fly over half the ocean to live with my mother in Hawaii and attend a completely different school. It'll take a while and I still have to go to my aunt's funeral next weekend which my dad also doesn't care about.

What I am trying to say is, you have options. And I don't know how hard your trying and I don't want to assume anything, but I do think you need to try harder. It's not going to go away, ever. And it's his loss, you're an amazing person, hun. I hope you see it with more of a sense of 'overcoming'. Just make it through this, hun, however you can. If that's, moving away, or toughing it out. Your call. But know that you're so much better than them.

Just keep breathing and make a difference. ;P

I'm sorry to hear it mate. *Pets head* Don't give up on hope, you know we're always here for you if needed most.

Sounds really bad, couldn't you contact child services/equivilant about it and tell them about what he does to you?

I don't feel like that would be fair, he does not physically harm anyone, he just doesn't know how to be a good person, and with that personality of his, he's going to lose both me and my mother, he's nothing but a narcissist fuck.

He's a narcissist fuck who is ruining your life but it isn't fair to make him stop/bring attention to it to someone who can really help? :c
If he's making you feel the need to throw the ol' suicide idea around and tell everyone online about it then I think it may be necessary >3>

Suicide is not the answer. It never has been and never will be. If your father actually treats you like this, tell him how you feel when he's around, if you havn't already. There are people out there who love you to no end, and taking your own life would devastate every single one of them.

My dad was the same way, grade A psychopath, except he got physical, too. He beat me and my mom since as far back as I can remember.

I don't live with him anymore but I'm still all fucked in the head from everything that happened.

Anyway I can sympathize with wanting to die unlike some of the other kids commenting here. You can escape the abuser but you can't escape your own fucked up brain. It's with you always and it will always torment you now. Why stay alive if that's the case? I have no answer to that, I'm just scared to die for some reason even though i want to.
I suggest drinking. Alcohol makes the mental boo boos go away for a time.
I drink so much that I fucked my liver up. Maybe I won't have to kill myself, maybe my friend Maker's Mark will do the job for me.

If he does not have a job, could you make sure he does not wake up? Then just live alone or invite friends over.
I have no family left besides a mismatched group of people that I met at a restaurant in another state that i moved in with without asking. Life is fun like that, you never know what will happen.