I'm so sleepy and weak :(
9 years ago
Every since this year started I feel unmotivated to do anything? Well I still walk my sisters dog, exercise and draw but I seem unfocused.
I get easily distracted by the internet and games that I don't feel satisfied with my day.
Maybe it's the fact I set my standards too high for 2016 as I feel 6 is my lucky number as 1996 had a great Summer and expectations and 2006 gave me You Tube, friends who relate to me and brought my love for cartoons back (well nearly).
I never can go to sleep early as with everyone else in my house hold.
I could just turn off the electronics at 21:00/9pm but it's so much fun to go online I can't help it (not to mention I can watch my won shows in peace on a console or laptop without fear of judgement).
I think I'm unrelated as I don't watch films or tv shows.
I feel bad relaxing as everyone else around me is constantly active so I can't settle down.
I don't even feel excited for 'Zootopia' coming out (or Zootropolis over herein Ireland) as I feel I don't deserve it (though I saw Deadpool and it was brill).
I just don't know what to do to get this sleeplessness off me.
I get easily distracted by the internet and games that I don't feel satisfied with my day.
Maybe it's the fact I set my standards too high for 2016 as I feel 6 is my lucky number as 1996 had a great Summer and expectations and 2006 gave me You Tube, friends who relate to me and brought my love for cartoons back (well nearly).
I never can go to sleep early as with everyone else in my house hold.
I could just turn off the electronics at 21:00/9pm but it's so much fun to go online I can't help it (not to mention I can watch my won shows in peace on a console or laptop without fear of judgement).
I think I'm unrelated as I don't watch films or tv shows.
I feel bad relaxing as everyone else around me is constantly active so I can't settle down.
I don't even feel excited for 'Zootopia' coming out (or Zootropolis over herein Ireland) as I feel I don't deserve it (though I saw Deadpool and it was brill).
I just don't know what to do to get this sleeplessness off me.
What I can suggest is trying to do new and different things. I see that you exercise, including walking your sister's dog, which is a very good step and you are staying active doing that alone. Maybe find any local groups nearby, who have the same interests as you; Such as fur meets, if you're comfortable meeting people. Just try things you havent tried before and see if it refuels your creativity and imagination! Or see about doing community stuff in your area, maybe. Anything to get out of the house for a bit and get some new scenery!
It's good that you vented, as you feel a lot better writing it all down and best if all, receiving support and advice from caring people. I know I felt A LOT better after posting my own vent journal last month and meant a lot hearing from people. I hope things get better for you and don't worry, you will eventually get out of that funk. It happens to the best of us and pretty normal. Feel better and good luck! :)
I go to the gym in Ennis so that's my excessive session for the day though I try 3 or 4 times a year.