Hello again! Time for some updates after a while~

I attended NordicFuzzCon 2016 a few weeks ago and it was my first big furry convention. I had lots of fun and was happy to see that some people visited my table and commissioned me, said nice things or just talked with me. I want to thank you all for that, it really means a lot for me! ;w; I also met a few new people and had a chance to share a few words with them, but I still feel like I didn't talk enough! Guess I was a bit shy, bleh. Loved the little parties during the nights, even though I sadly was a bit too tired on the last night and disappeared to sleep. :P
We'll see if I pop up to the next NFC as well, at least I really like the theme. And the hotel looks cool as hell! Anyway, I really want to thank everyone who made me feel welcome at the con, it was really nice to get a chance to hang out with new people!

Next stop, art. I have a few commissions in my list at the moment and I'm slowly trying to work through them. I have to ask for patience because I'm really slow as an artist and I have to handle my real life as well. I'm trying my best to find a job for the summer or I will go without any income for three months and at the same time I try to do my best in the school. If I won't get a job, I guess I'll have more time to draw, but I really do not want to go there. Whatever happens, during summer I do have more time for art as I don't have to study during my free time.

To be honest, I have thought about leaving commissions for a while after I've finished the ones I have promised. I feel really bad and just not right when I take commissions, like I'm not good enough for them. Or that I can't get my enthusiasm back. I guess I'm getting an artblock once again and I really do not want to go back there. I still try to come up with a good plan for all of this because I like doing art for others and making you guys happy. I won't promise anything, I know I'll still do random commissions every now and then. But all I know is that I need some time to do my stuff, I need to practice without stress of making everything perfect. I'll be thinking about this.

I guess I could put some life stuff here as well. Some may have noticed I turned 20 a bit over a week ago. I guess I'll be getting to the bigger numbers now. :P We also got new pets during that time, two lovely baby rats called Frisk and Chara. I love those little rodents to bits, even if this beginning is a bit hard thanks to all the teaching.
I'm attending therapies thanks to my depression and I quit taking antidepressants after a year of using them. I feel a bit more confident but at the same time I feel like I'm breaking apart again. And I'm afraid of it. It's never been this active, before it just made me passive. I'm trying my best to get better but I fear this will take a very long time to get over, even after all the past years. But I'll still try to stay positive, I've already traveled a long way!


Such a wall of text but there's something I've been doing. I hope you all have a good day! :3