I think I'm finally fed-up with being a doormat and allowing people to walk all over me. I've been the nice guy all my life and it's gotten me no where, literally. I'm tired of allowing others to do as they wish because I'm too afraid of losing an internet 'friend'.

The stalkers and creepers who have encountered me are allowed to stick around because I'm too much of a pussy to hurt their feelings by blocking their asses. The long-time 'friends', who I never met in person, string me along emotionally and I give in because, maybe, this will be the night they say 'hello' and ask how I am doing. Of course, that hasn't happened in 6 months but it MIGHT happen tonight.

Forgotten birthdays and holiday wishes. Can't get mad, or upset or hurt over those. People have real lives that matter and it's okay if they forget I exist on the one day out of the year that means something to me. Just like it doesn't bother me that I've known someone for 10+ years but they ignore me in every tweet or journal and opt for someone exciting they met last week.

Fuck the people I keep on Skype, who haven't spoken to me in months, because I don't want to be the bad guy by deleting their contact. Yeah, you manage to respond to my greeting but nothing else. I reach out, you give me the minimum, and I should keep bothering with you why?

Just like fuck the asshole who promised to come over for a visit. I rush-cleaned the house just for him. And he didn't have the decency to text me that he couldn't make it. Yeah, I didn't mind sitting there for three hours waiting to hear from you.

I'll go out of my way to make someone else feel wanted, welcomed and special but rarely get any of that returned. No more. I'm going to be an asshole like everyone else from now on.