So many questions.... So many new things to try.... Almost too much to take in....

Ignorance... Selfishness.... I don't know why this is all happening.... I need to think straight again... Nothing I do or say really helps in any situation, or makes said situation worse... Maybe it's just teenage drama acting on me...? I don't know... But I know that someday... I need to accept this change... Even if it kills me.... Why a I even talking to myself? Am I slowly turning insane as I speak...? Next minute, I could pull a knife from my sleeve and someone next to me...
Oh, what the hell is wrong with me....

I think I'm taking something too far to turn back on... and it's me....