I know that I was in the camp that was really cheering you on in trying to find a drug that works for you... but I want to take a step back and make sure that I say that if a drug *doesn't* help, it's okay to stop taking it! Every SSRI they put me on made me more and more suicidal so I had to stop taking SSRIs altogether. I also reacted very badly to xanax and other benzos. I do have friends and family whose lives have been saved by drugs, so I am not anti-drug, but it is really important to acknowledge that certain drugs do make certain people worse...! (I reacted okay to an anxiety drug called buspar, and I hear that buspar + melatonin does wonders for some people... maybe something to ask your doc about??)


I also read somewhere that those of us on the autism spectrum often need a way, WAY lower dose of antidepressants than neurotypicals do. If you do decide to try another SSRI--which is reasonable, as some people respond better to different brands--you might try asking your psych to start you at half of the normal dose and only increase it later if necessary. Obviously your psychiatrist is a pro and you should take their advice over that of me or other random internet people, but! Just some thoughts for you.

Thanks, I'll be sure to mention that at my evaluation in a month.

Also, I hope you don't mean I should go cold turkey.

ah, yes, I should have specified. You should definitely taper off any dosage of any psych meds. I went cold turkey off remeron, but I had only been taking it a week. When I tried to go cold turkey off elavil (a tricyclic) I had really terrible withdrawals, even tho' I was taking a very small dose!

so yes, definitely taper!!

Sorry to hear about all the troubles. I wish and pray you the best of luck.
Hope your new car treats you well.
Don't give up. 2012-2015 were some of the worst years of my life and I didn't think I was going to make it out. But I did. I'd like to think you can too.
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*Hugs* Good to hear about your car. :) I do hope that your work situation works out, and with your med stuff.