ATTENTION VENTING
I don't mean to sound mean I am just using this as a way to vent.


I know I am out on deployment. I know I need to focus on what is going on here. It is hard to not worry about what is going on back home though. This is my first time being deployed after getting married. I have been deployed befor and several times in fact. Its alot different when you are married though. At least for me it is. I worry about things that I can't do anything about. I somtimes ask about things that are alright but due to the fact that I can't be there to see it happening I worry. I love my with all my heart. I just feel so helpless now more than ever with her having to have to go to the hospital. I know she will pull through and will be ok soon. I have faith in her and are freind Leo(former marines and works in the medical field). It is hard not being able to be there. I know even if I was there right now there would be nothing I could do but wait until she recovers. Just wish I could be there right now still and hold her hand and tell her everything will be all right and tell her how much I love her.

well I will stop for now.............