I thought you guys should know that I feel better now. I'm not feeling completely lifeless anymore ^^ or atleast for this moment, I don't know if it might happen again.
I've also kinda been trying out other methods of drawing, like doing sketches with graphite pencils. And I also tried out manga studio 5 and sorta realized that the program I use for coloring (photoshop elements 10) might not be the best choice for me when it comed to digital xD I've been trying out painting in it. I can't really show anything I tried out though because the trial version does not allow me to save >.< but if I buy it I will be able to make better stuff, so I might buy it. We'll see.