im sorry for not haveing a good mood lately its just that something came up and i feel weak in the chest and everywhere else i feel missplaced in this world and im trying to find myself again but i just cant get the strenght to even make good dreams all i see in my dreams is that i sacfriced my life for everyone when there was trouble and im just dead in a casket i dont know why but i just am and thats what i have everynight and im sorry i hope you can forgive me and my actions. and one more thing if this progress anyworse i dont know what ill do. and if you thinking of death to my self than your mistaken just to let you know. take care all hope to be in better mood soon.