my mind is really fuzzy. i can't think about anything. my chest hurts and my stomach feels weird. i just want to vomit but i know i don't need to. nothing to feel bad about just feel bad. pretty normal in the scheme of things but sometimes it just gets to be too much. i can't convince myself of anything. everything is just shit. i don't want the weekend to come but i want the week to be over. i feel very violent like i need to let something out but every time i make any kind of sudden movements my head gets all out of whack and something releases inside of me and makes my whole body hot and my stomach feels incredibly intensely worse for a few minutes. then every thing just goes back to the way it was before. dumb. i'm going to use these journals as an outlet like this from now on, i like it.