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Venting Out my past and ANZAC Day message
9 years ago
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First and foremost I wanted to vent out about this way I acted towards a would've been fursuit maker of Bruzo. I needed to redeem myself to this very person and explain my motive of being so fussy supposedly on the materials used and the way I acted. For those who are new watchers who don't know what I'm on about, I written something on one of my journals that is I think too cocky and supposedly bitched about the materials she was going to use for the project. I don't want to go into that much into detail but this incident between me and this Chinese Dragon (who I was once considering to commission for this project of having me as a human transformed as this argonian character I hold dear to me as he is my main sona) bailed out on me through writing this note saying something of that nature.
That incident I didn't want to relive. As a matter of fact it haunted me. Be in mind this was before the time I received my first and only fursuit (I have currently got yet) of shiny Umbreon. Not only did the fursuit maker bailed on me but rubbed salt and pissed on my wounds by saying she will not take on future commissions for me and but wait there is more. She plastered my good name on the artist beware page on Facebook as not to be taken with commissions thus tried to ruin my chances of ever putting on a fursuit. I told her nicely to delete it as all I wanted to be a fursuiter like her and I am oblivious to fursuit making. But she replied with a refusal to as she thinks I'm a "bully" to her.
That minute I received that note I was loosing it. I was in tears. I was drowning in the rapids of emotional pain. Because all I was saving money on is this fursuit to bring Bruzo to life into the real world. I at the time never worn a fursuit in my life. And this dragon killed me on the inside. Could've kill Bruzo off completely. And as I was in this pain my parents did near nothing to relieve this pain I had. Instead mad of me for expressing this feeling in front of them. Thus punishing me. For the likes of this purple and white Asian dragon. Who's materials used to make her upgraded fursuit could've been used to give birth to my argonian fursona as a costume.
I know that I did things in the past I'm ashamed of especially here on FA. I am writing this to explain my actions of this time. To make a mends with this fursuit maker I offended. In hope she could build a bridge between us. In hope that she buries the hatchet she has against me.
The reason I acted this way is that at the time I wanted to go on a safe fursuit outing. And to do so I thought of needing a handler. The people I would trust to do this that I could turn to are my parents and family. But however they are so anti fur that they would be so embarrassed to be seen with me in a fursuit. But I don't want them to. I wanted them to be tolerable towards me in a fursuit. I respect they will never become furries themselves and thus I never intended to shove the fandom down their throats. I wanted to promote the positives of the furry community into my hometown community. I wanted to promote the fact that furs are just people who are like others but at the same time just are just into anthropomorphic animal characters. Promote the good and interesting things a fur tends to do. Not the stereotype that is portrayed in the media as these who commit bestiality and/or dress in a fursuit to fuck. I know some do I admit but I proud to admit also that I ain't one of them and thus it is none of my business of what other furs do in a fursuit. After all personally I never do intend to nor condone this thing called yiffing.
I do still want Bruzo to have a moving jaw and realistic. And I do love fleece as a material to be used to make him. Just that I was sceptical on the material and I seen picture of fursuits made of fleece and they are amazing.
But with this campaign I wanted to do. I wanted to have people see that furries are cool to a point they themselves would love the fandom enough to consider themselves as one and the city of Newcastle would be populated with enough furs to conceder having a local fur meet which is phase 2.
So to Kai the Asian Dragon. Please find it in your heart to bury that hatchet you have towards me. Bruzo Dragonius as a fursuit don't have to be a
creation. I'm cool with it. Besides, Umbreon's head may be damaged but I love this Pokémon fursuit like my baby. I treated Umbreon with care and love. I would love to be in public in this fursuit with pride. More so I enjoy wearing it. And I will sure deffo enjoy Bruzo no matter what material he is made of as a suit. The reason I turned to this maker in the first place is that you were the first person suggested by another fur that are based in Australia and able to make argonians into fursuits.
All I wanted are makers that are based in Australia or a country who's currency is lower than the Australian dollar that can make Bruzo to my image with such great quality and endurance. Not dodgy in any way. As at most I can only afford paying the Aussie dollar for a fursuit commission. If you feel you still too fearful and too disgusted on my past to take on my commission on fine. I respect that. After all, I'd rather pay some overseas maker who's currency is above the Australian dollar who is willing to make a custom scalesuit with love, care and pride. And as a fun project to do rather than an Australian artist who makes him as a cash grab only. I just hope we'll cross paths in Confugence and/or FurDU in the hopefully not too distant future and let all this drama behind us. As our alter egos hopefully. By mean that in fursuit as our main characters.
Also another thing. Today is a very special day here in Australia. When we pay respect to those war veterans that gone thought so much hell to protect us from the shit that could otherwise happen in our very home land. Not just to commemorate the battle Gallipoli in World War 1 but also pay respect to those soldiers and military personnel of New Zealand and my beloved homeland of this very country I'm in protecting it and it's people from potential harm from foreign enemies throughout history. I have a lot of respect from these men and women that served our nation to protect it. I personally respect all of the Australian defence force and it's allies. As today is ANZAC Day. And that is a day we celebrate for that reason. I will wrap op this journal written on the day of the Anzacs by saying less we forget!!!!
That incident I didn't want to relive. As a matter of fact it haunted me. Be in mind this was before the time I received my first and only fursuit (I have currently got yet) of shiny Umbreon. Not only did the fursuit maker bailed on me but rubbed salt and pissed on my wounds by saying she will not take on future commissions for me and but wait there is more. She plastered my good name on the artist beware page on Facebook as not to be taken with commissions thus tried to ruin my chances of ever putting on a fursuit. I told her nicely to delete it as all I wanted to be a fursuiter like her and I am oblivious to fursuit making. But she replied with a refusal to as she thinks I'm a "bully" to her.
That minute I received that note I was loosing it. I was in tears. I was drowning in the rapids of emotional pain. Because all I was saving money on is this fursuit to bring Bruzo to life into the real world. I at the time never worn a fursuit in my life. And this dragon killed me on the inside. Could've kill Bruzo off completely. And as I was in this pain my parents did near nothing to relieve this pain I had. Instead mad of me for expressing this feeling in front of them. Thus punishing me. For the likes of this purple and white Asian dragon. Who's materials used to make her upgraded fursuit could've been used to give birth to my argonian fursona as a costume.
I know that I did things in the past I'm ashamed of especially here on FA. I am writing this to explain my actions of this time. To make a mends with this fursuit maker I offended. In hope she could build a bridge between us. In hope that she buries the hatchet she has against me.
The reason I acted this way is that at the time I wanted to go on a safe fursuit outing. And to do so I thought of needing a handler. The people I would trust to do this that I could turn to are my parents and family. But however they are so anti fur that they would be so embarrassed to be seen with me in a fursuit. But I don't want them to. I wanted them to be tolerable towards me in a fursuit. I respect they will never become furries themselves and thus I never intended to shove the fandom down their throats. I wanted to promote the positives of the furry community into my hometown community. I wanted to promote the fact that furs are just people who are like others but at the same time just are just into anthropomorphic animal characters. Promote the good and interesting things a fur tends to do. Not the stereotype that is portrayed in the media as these who commit bestiality and/or dress in a fursuit to fuck. I know some do I admit but I proud to admit also that I ain't one of them and thus it is none of my business of what other furs do in a fursuit. After all personally I never do intend to nor condone this thing called yiffing.
I do still want Bruzo to have a moving jaw and realistic. And I do love fleece as a material to be used to make him. Just that I was sceptical on the material and I seen picture of fursuits made of fleece and they are amazing.
But with this campaign I wanted to do. I wanted to have people see that furries are cool to a point they themselves would love the fandom enough to consider themselves as one and the city of Newcastle would be populated with enough furs to conceder having a local fur meet which is phase 2.
So to Kai the Asian Dragon. Please find it in your heart to bury that hatchet you have towards me. Bruzo Dragonius as a fursuit don't have to be a
creation. I'm cool with it. Besides, Umbreon's head may be damaged but I love this Pokémon fursuit like my baby. I treated Umbreon with care and love. I would love to be in public in this fursuit with pride. More so I enjoy wearing it. And I will sure deffo enjoy Bruzo no matter what material he is made of as a suit. The reason I turned to this maker in the first place is that you were the first person suggested by another fur that are based in Australia and able to make argonians into fursuits. All I wanted are makers that are based in Australia or a country who's currency is lower than the Australian dollar that can make Bruzo to my image with such great quality and endurance. Not dodgy in any way. As at most I can only afford paying the Aussie dollar for a fursuit commission. If you feel you still too fearful and too disgusted on my past to take on my commission on fine. I respect that. After all, I'd rather pay some overseas maker who's currency is above the Australian dollar who is willing to make a custom scalesuit with love, care and pride. And as a fun project to do rather than an Australian artist who makes him as a cash grab only. I just hope we'll cross paths in Confugence and/or FurDU in the hopefully not too distant future and let all this drama behind us. As our alter egos hopefully. By mean that in fursuit as our main characters.
Also another thing. Today is a very special day here in Australia. When we pay respect to those war veterans that gone thought so much hell to protect us from the shit that could otherwise happen in our very home land. Not just to commemorate the battle Gallipoli in World War 1 but also pay respect to those soldiers and military personnel of New Zealand and my beloved homeland of this very country I'm in protecting it and it's people from potential harm from foreign enemies throughout history. I have a lot of respect from these men and women that served our nation to protect it. I personally respect all of the Australian defence force and it's allies. As today is ANZAC Day. And that is a day we celebrate for that reason. I will wrap op this journal written on the day of the Anzacs by saying less we forget!!!!
