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9 years ago
Currently I'm still in "recovery mode" from years and years of constant moving, family problems, losing contact with friends / the internet in general for months (and even one time, a year) at a time. Even though it's been nearly a month or two with everything stable and settled, I've.. had a lot of problems adjusting and clearing stress from my head.
I have a lot of anxiety. I can't even bring myself to talk to close friends sometimes because it feels like I'm doing something horribly wrong, for no good reason. I've spent the past month or so completely unable to do anything I'd like to, and tried stress relief (games, doodles to cheer up), all for the main reason; I can't make pictures with this mindset. The occasions I have made any pictures of "quality" lately were.. WELL. Trying to dig myself out of the stress-induced "art block" that I'm in right now!
I'm sure the best way to get over all this is to just set hours and a strict schedule about what I'm drawing. Maybe.. set up streaming schedules that actually stick. Currently I haven't done any. And don't worry about commissions, I still have everyone's details, information, date, etc. I'm wanting to get them done as soon as possible! That's actually one of the things that's been stressing me out so much, whoops..
I need help, basically. A lot of help. I'm obviously not coping by myself as I thought I could, it's been almost two months with no improvement, so.. Yeah. I'm going to be figuring out a schedule I can consistently work with, a list of which commissions to do in the streams, in which order, etc. Hopefully pull myself out of this "doodles only" slump I've been in for months, and give my commissioners what they paid for. And hopefully give my current watchers something to look at. x3
On a side note, it's pretty incredible to be close to three hundred watchers, even if I've been on FA for close to 8 years now. I'm glad to be progressing as much as I have! This is also a lot nicer of a journal than the one I typed out at 5 AM the other day, eheh. ))
I have a lot of anxiety. I can't even bring myself to talk to close friends sometimes because it feels like I'm doing something horribly wrong, for no good reason. I've spent the past month or so completely unable to do anything I'd like to, and tried stress relief (games, doodles to cheer up), all for the main reason; I can't make pictures with this mindset. The occasions I have made any pictures of "quality" lately were.. WELL. Trying to dig myself out of the stress-induced "art block" that I'm in right now!
I'm sure the best way to get over all this is to just set hours and a strict schedule about what I'm drawing. Maybe.. set up streaming schedules that actually stick. Currently I haven't done any. And don't worry about commissions, I still have everyone's details, information, date, etc. I'm wanting to get them done as soon as possible! That's actually one of the things that's been stressing me out so much, whoops..
I need help, basically. A lot of help. I'm obviously not coping by myself as I thought I could, it's been almost two months with no improvement, so.. Yeah. I'm going to be figuring out a schedule I can consistently work with, a list of which commissions to do in the streams, in which order, etc. Hopefully pull myself out of this "doodles only" slump I've been in for months, and give my commissioners what they paid for. And hopefully give my current watchers something to look at. x3
On a side note, it's pretty incredible to be close to three hundred watchers, even if I've been on FA for close to 8 years now. I'm glad to be progressing as much as I have! This is also a lot nicer of a journal than the one I typed out at 5 AM the other day, eheh. ))
Thanks for the update, but you take as long as it needs and come back when you're ready.
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And now that I'm done BSing you, congrats on your watchers! x3 You know you're one of my favourite artists, and a dear, sweet friend. Anxiety sucks, yeah.. you know I deal with it too. But, bear in mind you always have loving, caring friends that will be by your side no matter what! *snugs* Keep being awesome. x3
Thanks Lane. .w. I'll certainly try to stay around while doing all the things, it's just rough currently. I actually feel a bit bad not being able to cope well, pff. THINGS WILL BE FINE THOUGH.
Owo
Much respect! xD