Whelp as I expected soon as my folks heard about what happen I was rolled and hung to dry. My family is putting on so much pressure I think I'm gonna shatter into pieces...already having some dark thoughts creep into this skull and its taking some personnel motivation to keep them at bay. It doesnt help that im at the same time getting pressure from my mother to go back to college and study...i doesnt help that she's pointed out my age and how undesicive ive been. Fact is I'm very unsure of what I want to do for the long term...admittedly this topic's the quickest way to tear me down. Right now I'm feeling pretty low and wishing I could just crawl under a rock and be unnoticed sigh its hard to pull through when you get this shoved in your face almost every day...