I cant, i just can't get on with the fact my Girlfriend is gone >_< It hurts so much, i've never felt greater pain before...
I still love her, but i know i shouldn't love her anymore, if there's one thing i really hate, then its this feeling. I feel like a big part of my self is gone. If there would be one thing to bring her back to me i would do it, i would do everything to fill up the Void that appeared as she left me.
Yesterday, when she told me she has found a new love, a world has been broken for me... 2 Years with her, 2 years of love are gone in just one second. In such a Moment, you search for one thing: The Reason
Why did she left me? Am i too ugly? too strange? Didnt i show her how much i love her enough times?
What's the reason you don't love me anymore?
I could cry, cry for the rest of my life without her...
I really don't know why i write this, maybe just to dump my soul to somewhere. It's not good to hide your feelings, and maybe another one who has experianced the same can tell me how he got along with all this shit, at the moment i dont know what i should feel... Despair, Hate, Jealousness... maybe a bit of all three...
Usually i was thinking to move to her house, and live with her because we live a bit far away from eachother. I hated that Distance between me and her, i visited her as often as my Money allowed me, but now that doesn't matter anymore...She's gone and nothing can bring her back... never... i really had to hold back my tears while writing this shitty journal, i wish everyone of you out there, never to be left by your girlfriend/boyfriend. Theres nothing more painful then this...

Well i feel a little bit better after writing this...
Thanks for reading and such, and sorry for disturbing you with my personal Issues...