I watched all the new youtube videos of the day, then all the recommended videos, then a playlist of over 200 videos on a channel that was one of the recommended videos, then came here and did my regular artist cycle to see if they have new art, then I did it four more times even though I knew nothing would be different, I have spent the last 15 or so minutes clicking refresh over and over on notes and journals just to see if anyone writes anything so that I can hear someone else's thoughts, and now it's 2 am and I've been here for over 15 hours doing basically nothing and not even noticing I haven't moved or eaten.

I feel so hollow and empty, and there is just nothing. To do anything I have to make myself; to play video games or put on a movie or listen to music even feels like a struggle. This is the worst thing to feel, just this crippling emptiness. I hate just feeling nothing.


~Quwaz the Panda