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...So...I was in the hospital a little over a month ago...
9 years ago
General
I've been trying (and failing) to refrain from liberal swearing and to simply speak what I can in a far more refined and dignified fashion even if I may come off as aggressive, I'm forgoing that for now.
So anyone who dosen't want swearing, stop reading.
But before that...
Check these two out, Lei-Lani
lei-lani and Kino Jaggernov 
kinojaggernov , a great writer and artist respectively, they may have some good things worth your while.
Back to me...
So yeah, sometime in March I had to visit the hospital,
I wish I could bring up details but I'm still at an utter loss as how to honestly explain what happened or why.
I can only say is that, I haven't even started to honestly recover from it given what other things I'm dealing with.
I'm discouraged from even saying much because I've more or less been convinced I'm simply bitching and moaning and I need to shut my fucking mouth about it.
But I'm trying to bother becuase for anyone who even still wonders why I've been a ghost with some exceptions (such as streams) at least something of an explanation.
Not to mention..
I want to give comissions a shot but it's very clear that while I will go for and stick to a plan of me doing the art first and then when it's finished and presented, then I'll accept payment, which is not an ideal plan but to be blunt, it's going to be YEARS before I can honeslty consider a different plan altogether.
May be shorter than that...but outside cars I still fucking suck, not that I've been doing fuck all this whole time.
But I'm going to try and do this all over again, and maybe not fuck up.
But with how life can suddenly demand my full attention elsewhere because real FUCKING life.
Fuck it...lets see how I try to not fuck up this attempt at commissions.
...I'm starting to accept that for much as I want to keep my emotions in check, there's a lot to let out. Maybe when I can draw worth a damn I can show it in art more, if so, don't be surpirsed to see some things with gore, and as for what?
Here's an obvious hint for some ...
'Yes...I do like hurting other people.'
So anyone who dosen't want swearing, stop reading.
But before that...
Check these two out, Lei-Lani
lei-lani and Kino Jaggernov 
kinojaggernov , a great writer and artist respectively, they may have some good things worth your while.Back to me...
So yeah, sometime in March I had to visit the hospital,
I wish I could bring up details but I'm still at an utter loss as how to honestly explain what happened or why.
I can only say is that, I haven't even started to honestly recover from it given what other things I'm dealing with.
I'm discouraged from even saying much because I've more or less been convinced I'm simply bitching and moaning and I need to shut my fucking mouth about it.
But I'm trying to bother becuase for anyone who even still wonders why I've been a ghost with some exceptions (such as streams) at least something of an explanation.
Not to mention..
I want to give comissions a shot but it's very clear that while I will go for and stick to a plan of me doing the art first and then when it's finished and presented, then I'll accept payment, which is not an ideal plan but to be blunt, it's going to be YEARS before I can honeslty consider a different plan altogether.
May be shorter than that...but outside cars I still fucking suck, not that I've been doing fuck all this whole time.
But I'm going to try and do this all over again, and maybe not fuck up.
But with how life can suddenly demand my full attention elsewhere because real FUCKING life.
Fuck it...lets see how I try to not fuck up this attempt at commissions.
...I'm starting to accept that for much as I want to keep my emotions in check, there's a lot to let out. Maybe when I can draw worth a damn I can show it in art more, if so, don't be surpirsed to see some things with gore, and as for what?
Here's an obvious hint for some ...
'Yes...I do like hurting other people.'
but one thing i DO know something about, is art.
And you have a skill man.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19784608/
keep it up! never give in!
it obvioulsy isn't going to be easy.