early this morning, I had a news from mexico about my grandpa's important brother's death and he's on his back brother who been helping on farm, and crafting worker as I been with him before on my childhood then real life when I came to mexico as he showed me things that are personal to me, I do not want to share around the internet. So that journal that I wrote was deleted because the reason as I literally regret posting it.

About my reactions over his death, I was upset till oddly as I was fine but still.. I still cared about him and I feel like I regret posting things what happen as i went to lay down on bed, then walk around the house. Of Course I'm support to see him in Grave yard event but it's too far away as my family from mexico tells me that I don't have to go there because college, and other important things in real life. I'm still down and.. I dislike what I wrote around DeviarntART, furaffinity, Twitter and other such. I wasn't feeling good as I thought I'll be hiatus as turn out, I'll be alright since my parents and they're friends told me to stay strong and don't forget the people who have falling. Because my parents did went stress, and they're friends are counting on them as they don't give up as they need to be strong, and so... We pull our self together as we may have loss our family but we all need to stay strong.

What I felt posting about my upsetness over my Grandpa's bother's death, I feel like I did same kids would post because back in time as I used to go one site named Flipnote Hatena, there was lot of shit posts of kids saying "Oh my dog died" as there was very less till more post like "Oh my mom died, my dad died, my Grandpa died" and other amount, I was kinda not quite happy when seeing and almost every post was count as lie and it's going to be hard believe if someone had family loss. I seened one user did went upset his lover girl get ran over by a car and post a journal about her and that use was already been killed and since now there some few guys being asshole to him. I would love to tell him to stop but.. I tell myself not to do it, because I feel shit things going to happen even more.

For now, I'm still sad, please do not send gifts for me please don't because I feel like I don't earn them, my Grandpa's best brother is officially dead in real life, if you said "I Don't give a shit about your family" I'll immediately block you as I don't want to see this kind of words to me as I care for my family. Finally I should not post journals like that because I felt drama could happen as i took a guess that I feel like it could happen randomly.

Thank you everyone for reading this journal, I'll still be alright while stress im having as I need to stay strong. Thank you for reading and that's all for now. Bye bye!