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Internal Struggles, Addictions, and Work
16 years ago
General
My ancestors were farmers. It wasn't glamerous or exciting, it was however hard work and necessary. Most of the world before me is exactly the same as my ancestors. Life is different now though.
Now we have technologies that make life easier. There is more free time today than ever. Life is the best its ever been. Or is it?
I have had a very easy life honestly. But its had its downfalls. The biggest is that I've forgotten life. Life is hard, there is no denying that. Most of my life has been trying to avoid that difficulty, why work hard when I can sit back and have a good time?
I see people today, and I look back to the past as well. I look at all this, and I feel ashamed of myself. Yes I have a full time job, and I do my time in it. But so many people around me have two jobs. Most people I know after they are done with work, go on to work on the house, do more schoolwork, or even chase after other constructive things in their lives. But I don't, I do my time at work, come home and generally sit around and do nothing.
Yes on several days I'll put in an extra hour before or after work to do some writing. But thats it. Is that "enough"? Am I just coasting in life? It seems like I am, compaired to everyone else. I have visions of several books to publish, but I don't know if it can happen as things are going.
Once again in my life, I feel the need to cut out something I am adicted to, video games. Since I was six I've been playing these things. They have given me many gifts in my life other than just a good time. I've developed a sense of imagination from them, and they have given me ideas and thoughts that have helped develop a good portion of my vision. I play hours and hours of games in a week, and I feel its just too much.
How do I get out of this loop? How do I get out of this addiction? I don't feel like I'm living right, I feel wrong. I feel that I need help, but I don't know what to do or where to go. I know it sounds pathetic compaired to a lot of other problems out there, and I'm sorry if I am going on about what might be a trivial problem. To me though, its a problem, and its been affecting my life in general I think.
Please if you read this far, I need your opinions, thoughts, support, suggestions. I'll take anything. And thank you for going through all this.
Now we have technologies that make life easier. There is more free time today than ever. Life is the best its ever been. Or is it?
I have had a very easy life honestly. But its had its downfalls. The biggest is that I've forgotten life. Life is hard, there is no denying that. Most of my life has been trying to avoid that difficulty, why work hard when I can sit back and have a good time?
I see people today, and I look back to the past as well. I look at all this, and I feel ashamed of myself. Yes I have a full time job, and I do my time in it. But so many people around me have two jobs. Most people I know after they are done with work, go on to work on the house, do more schoolwork, or even chase after other constructive things in their lives. But I don't, I do my time at work, come home and generally sit around and do nothing.
Yes on several days I'll put in an extra hour before or after work to do some writing. But thats it. Is that "enough"? Am I just coasting in life? It seems like I am, compaired to everyone else. I have visions of several books to publish, but I don't know if it can happen as things are going.
Once again in my life, I feel the need to cut out something I am adicted to, video games. Since I was six I've been playing these things. They have given me many gifts in my life other than just a good time. I've developed a sense of imagination from them, and they have given me ideas and thoughts that have helped develop a good portion of my vision. I play hours and hours of games in a week, and I feel its just too much.
How do I get out of this loop? How do I get out of this addiction? I don't feel like I'm living right, I feel wrong. I feel that I need help, but I don't know what to do or where to go. I know it sounds pathetic compaired to a lot of other problems out there, and I'm sorry if I am going on about what might be a trivial problem. To me though, its a problem, and its been affecting my life in general I think.
Please if you read this far, I need your opinions, thoughts, support, suggestions. I'll take anything. And thank you for going through all this.
Oh, society is different, so thats my problem, that is why I feel bad about myself.
But this makes no sense and you should listen to your own feelings on the problem, not your feelings compared to what you think others might feel about it.