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9 years ago
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i've been... rly out of sorts again lately! full of fear, anxiety. getting more headaches and feeling bad again.
but it's, in part, because i havent been taking my pills... im bad about that...
i really don't like that art has to be my source of income. it's always either doing good or going slow, and its hard. but i dont think
that i'm capable of working a real job like a normal person lol... sometimes going outside is hard
i feel like withdrawing into my shell again, something i havent done since after i graduated high school. but i know i cant, because i have
people who depend on me, yknow? i just... wish life was easier.
like, i wish i knew how to drive, and didnt get scared, and that i could handle going more places by myself, or that i didnt cry all the time
sucks a lot, yknow?
pfbthth i need to take a break from commissions, to just... recuperate... but idk if i can, actually?... id disappoint a lot of people
id disappoint my boyfriend and my roommate and myself
my dog needs dog food and im broke, i have another bill to pay, and i have $20 left after some today
its rly hard fjgskhgsd
im sorry i talk about things here, by the way... its one of the few places i feel comfortable sharing this stuff, for some reason
but it's, in part, because i havent been taking my pills... im bad about that...
i really don't like that art has to be my source of income. it's always either doing good or going slow, and its hard. but i dont think
that i'm capable of working a real job like a normal person lol... sometimes going outside is hard
i feel like withdrawing into my shell again, something i havent done since after i graduated high school. but i know i cant, because i have
people who depend on me, yknow? i just... wish life was easier.
like, i wish i knew how to drive, and didnt get scared, and that i could handle going more places by myself, or that i didnt cry all the time
sucks a lot, yknow?
pfbthth i need to take a break from commissions, to just... recuperate... but idk if i can, actually?... id disappoint a lot of people
id disappoint my boyfriend and my roommate and myself
my dog needs dog food and im broke, i have another bill to pay, and i have $20 left after some today
its rly hard fjgskhgsd
im sorry i talk about things here, by the way... its one of the few places i feel comfortable sharing this stuff, for some reason
ILL... figure it all out, probably. my boyfriends dad is on disability so i can probably get help from him
Be careful with going on disability though if you can avoid it, the way it's structured can end up basically trapping you.
I also echo everyone suggesting disability, Just make sure to do a propper looking up on the matter!
also as an alt to taking commissions maybe work on some adopts? I know for me that helps quite a bit to just be able to design something and still get paid later ;;