First off, I'm not the one normally writing stuff like that, neither am I the Journal Guy in general. I'm normally 99,99% of the time the happy caring person who is there if needed and I am that really. I'm hardly ever angry or depressed (in case of depressed I actually never was in my entire life so far). And having no other place to write this I guess I'm doing it here.

Lately I'm feeling weird, more precisely for weeks, months even. Everyone around me is moving away, is in a relationship or is even getting married and are about to have children, be it Family relatives, Family friends or Friends. Just makes me feel weird, not sad or depressed or angry, just weird. I'm not depressed that I don't have someone, and I'm truly happy for everyone being in a relationship. It's just weird watching all of this happening, while I'm having none, doesn't mean i'm desperate to find someone, if it happens it happens and thats it I'm not forcing anything. Just a weird feeling being the “Lone Wolf” more and more, I guess.

Guess if I could and would have the money I would buy a puppy now (Akita, German Shepard, Husky or a Tamaskan <3).
I don't even know why i'm writing this journal exactly, probably to simple get these thoughts out of my system and able focus properly again.

I mean you don't even have to reply here, don't even have to read it :D (but then again if you reading this here right now you obviously have).

Well, can't say it didn't helped writing this down, feeling already better now having this down and out of my mind.

Onwards to drawing stuff still have 2 "commissions" to do!