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9 years ago
What have I been up to.....
Well that's a loaded question now isn't it, but to expand on that a lot lately. Recently had the pleasure of attending 2 meets and I'll go over both of those. Before we begin however I will say that my life is in a shaker bottle at the moment with uncertainty looming around every corner. It is a known truth that what the future holds for me job wise is in flux, I am hoping to stay with my current position however that again is just hovering with "I don't know". Just like everyone if you catch me in a moment and I'm a bit non-responsive then its not you by any means its likely I'm in thought about moving forward in life and the tough roads ahead, I guess the road sigh of "Dangerous Curves Ahead" applies.
I've also had the pleasure of meeting a person that has changed my view drastically, this particular individual has medical issues that are very bad. Daily he deals with life and death decisions that I in my dizziest daydreams couldn't fathom handling myself. Aside from all that each time we meet he smiles and laughs, this particular individual lives life with his full body and soul which is humbling and amazing in a single moment. Yes I am very proud to call him a good friend of mine and in more then one way he has changed my outlook on life.
I will say that some folks may have remembered me from the past, maybe I've done a few wrong and disappearing on everyone was wrong. I do understand that the community is more then just a common interest its a family, we all develop close bonds with each other and leaving without saying a word has devastating results well beyond even my scope of understanding. I've come back with my head held low and tail tucked asking for forgiveness and most have, I've said what I've needed to say to a lot of people, I'm not asking for you to agree with what I did just an answer as to where I stand in your life.
My life in flux, and the whole ball of wax gets redone, what does this mean you say. Well once this is posted no going back but I'm putting it out there. I'm Single, yes that's right no mate, not looking at the moment (although open) and not really reciprocating any feelings beyond friendship. My past is spotted with odd occurrences that a best friend finds amusing to say the least. Simply put I can't keep a partner to save my life, yes all females if your wondering. Most left me in disgust at best and various other feelings, flip side of the coin is I've a lot of males that are highly interested in me. Paradox of it is that I get along with males better then females and understand them a lot better, I know one particular that would love to be with me in more then a friends status. Now here is the issue at hand is to sort through these felling that I have, I'd move heaven and earth itself for this one person that I've known for well on 11 years, they may not know that but its the truth. We meet at a get together at his place a long time ago, to say a friendship grew is an understatement, as time moved on we learned each other, the bond then was solidified. I had dropped out of the community without contact of him, this is shortly after the truth about feelings were told to me and no, that isn't the reason I left like I did however I can't help to think it had devastating consequences. Now I sit at a cross roads which is trying to find and rationalize these feelings, where do they sit in my life and should I go exploring. I really don't want to get hurt and I really don't wish to hurt someone else so it would have to be a safe place and one hell of an understanding on both sides.
Now the interesting part that has been observed by a lot of people, I get hit on a lot by males, I've tried to create a character in SIMS and my wife left me and I ended up with a guy, the only person I could romance successfully in Fallout 4 was the male companion...maybe I understand males better then females.
Ok, on to the main course as it were...
NoVA Bowling Meet
Was awesome, I want to thank Spazzy for letting me run around as Raz for a bit. To say that it was fun to be free from life's little judgements is an understatement. I will admit that its not an easy thing to be in a fursuit and I want to applaud every one that does it. It is not comfortable at all, to be frank its hot and takes a toll on you but the payment of people interacting is well worth it, besides the artwork is beautiful on all these custom created artwork pieces.
I'd say that I also got to interact with friends, I've started to mend a few broken relationships and made some new friends. Everyone that I meet I gave a hug to (sometimes 2) and it was wonderful, even got a few ninja hugs in return...Awesome. Hanging out with friends is amazing, I can't thank you all enough for wanting to spend time with this old mutt and can say that each one of these moments is a memory that makes life worth living and defines that singular difference between just living and living well. As a general side note Bowling in fursuit is insanely difficult, awesome job on everyone that tried it.
Kain's Meet
This again was another amazing meet, I got to hang out with friends and even meet up with a few of the old crew back from 2007. I cooked as well for this one, an amazing pasta and meat sauce which went over well from what I could gather, there was also Chili and Taco's later in the evening. Thank you all who participated and also helped with this as the food was great and I must tip my hat to the chief's of the evening. I hung out and talked with a lot of people, being with friends is an awesome experience but it makes the time pass so quickly, eventually Blossom and I had to head back home to walk the dogs, thank you Max for giving us a lift and also making a new friend that night. I got back to a party winding down and played Cards Against Humanity for a bit which again was a blast. Talked with a few people here and there and then left the party at around 4, had a long conversation with Pherik that for lack of better terms flipped the table of my life and we had Denny's for early morning breakfast. After this there was little to be said but good nite world, I went to bed very content with how the party went and what my future holds. Thank you all that came, I do count the days until we can hang out again and just enjoy having a good time.
(Disclaimer-there was more that went on however I won't post that without asking the person first if I can)
That's pretty much it, yes a long entry this time around but had I been sticking to my once a week updates like I should have it wouldn't be this long...but I'm glad it is in some ways.
Well that's a loaded question now isn't it, but to expand on that a lot lately. Recently had the pleasure of attending 2 meets and I'll go over both of those. Before we begin however I will say that my life is in a shaker bottle at the moment with uncertainty looming around every corner. It is a known truth that what the future holds for me job wise is in flux, I am hoping to stay with my current position however that again is just hovering with "I don't know". Just like everyone if you catch me in a moment and I'm a bit non-responsive then its not you by any means its likely I'm in thought about moving forward in life and the tough roads ahead, I guess the road sigh of "Dangerous Curves Ahead" applies.
I've also had the pleasure of meeting a person that has changed my view drastically, this particular individual has medical issues that are very bad. Daily he deals with life and death decisions that I in my dizziest daydreams couldn't fathom handling myself. Aside from all that each time we meet he smiles and laughs, this particular individual lives life with his full body and soul which is humbling and amazing in a single moment. Yes I am very proud to call him a good friend of mine and in more then one way he has changed my outlook on life.
I will say that some folks may have remembered me from the past, maybe I've done a few wrong and disappearing on everyone was wrong. I do understand that the community is more then just a common interest its a family, we all develop close bonds with each other and leaving without saying a word has devastating results well beyond even my scope of understanding. I've come back with my head held low and tail tucked asking for forgiveness and most have, I've said what I've needed to say to a lot of people, I'm not asking for you to agree with what I did just an answer as to where I stand in your life.
My life in flux, and the whole ball of wax gets redone, what does this mean you say. Well once this is posted no going back but I'm putting it out there. I'm Single, yes that's right no mate, not looking at the moment (although open) and not really reciprocating any feelings beyond friendship. My past is spotted with odd occurrences that a best friend finds amusing to say the least. Simply put I can't keep a partner to save my life, yes all females if your wondering. Most left me in disgust at best and various other feelings, flip side of the coin is I've a lot of males that are highly interested in me. Paradox of it is that I get along with males better then females and understand them a lot better, I know one particular that would love to be with me in more then a friends status. Now here is the issue at hand is to sort through these felling that I have, I'd move heaven and earth itself for this one person that I've known for well on 11 years, they may not know that but its the truth. We meet at a get together at his place a long time ago, to say a friendship grew is an understatement, as time moved on we learned each other, the bond then was solidified. I had dropped out of the community without contact of him, this is shortly after the truth about feelings were told to me and no, that isn't the reason I left like I did however I can't help to think it had devastating consequences. Now I sit at a cross roads which is trying to find and rationalize these feelings, where do they sit in my life and should I go exploring. I really don't want to get hurt and I really don't wish to hurt someone else so it would have to be a safe place and one hell of an understanding on both sides.
Now the interesting part that has been observed by a lot of people, I get hit on a lot by males, I've tried to create a character in SIMS and my wife left me and I ended up with a guy, the only person I could romance successfully in Fallout 4 was the male companion...maybe I understand males better then females.
Ok, on to the main course as it were...
NoVA Bowling Meet
Was awesome, I want to thank Spazzy for letting me run around as Raz for a bit. To say that it was fun to be free from life's little judgements is an understatement. I will admit that its not an easy thing to be in a fursuit and I want to applaud every one that does it. It is not comfortable at all, to be frank its hot and takes a toll on you but the payment of people interacting is well worth it, besides the artwork is beautiful on all these custom created artwork pieces.
I'd say that I also got to interact with friends, I've started to mend a few broken relationships and made some new friends. Everyone that I meet I gave a hug to (sometimes 2) and it was wonderful, even got a few ninja hugs in return...Awesome. Hanging out with friends is amazing, I can't thank you all enough for wanting to spend time with this old mutt and can say that each one of these moments is a memory that makes life worth living and defines that singular difference between just living and living well. As a general side note Bowling in fursuit is insanely difficult, awesome job on everyone that tried it.
Kain's Meet
This again was another amazing meet, I got to hang out with friends and even meet up with a few of the old crew back from 2007. I cooked as well for this one, an amazing pasta and meat sauce which went over well from what I could gather, there was also Chili and Taco's later in the evening. Thank you all who participated and also helped with this as the food was great and I must tip my hat to the chief's of the evening. I hung out and talked with a lot of people, being with friends is an awesome experience but it makes the time pass so quickly, eventually Blossom and I had to head back home to walk the dogs, thank you Max for giving us a lift and also making a new friend that night. I got back to a party winding down and played Cards Against Humanity for a bit which again was a blast. Talked with a few people here and there and then left the party at around 4, had a long conversation with Pherik that for lack of better terms flipped the table of my life and we had Denny's for early morning breakfast. After this there was little to be said but good nite world, I went to bed very content with how the party went and what my future holds. Thank you all that came, I do count the days until we can hang out again and just enjoy having a good time.
(Disclaimer-there was more that went on however I won't post that without asking the person first if I can)
That's pretty much it, yes a long entry this time around but had I been sticking to my once a week updates like I should have it wouldn't be this long...but I'm glad it is in some ways.
