So my grandfather has been stamped with an expiration date, which is six months from now. I just learned this today, and since he's currently in the hospital for multiple different reasons right now, the hospital and doctors there have told us that at this point, my father and I need to step back and let hospice come in to do their job to make him as comfortable as possible in his last days/weeks/months. Hopefully there's more time than that left for him, and for us - But we've seen this coming for months and months now. At least when something does happen, he'll no longer have to suffer. But as for now, it's hitting me like a train and I really just need to stop and step down for a while. With my birthday around the corner, my testosterone anniversary, my boyfriend starting testosterone finally, my father's health, and informing all the family - There's just too much going on and I honestly just have to close commissions. For those who have already paid me, I'll refund you on Thursday.

I'll make another journal whenever I actually decide to open again, if I decide to. I just can't right now, or even see myself opening again in the near future.

I just... need some time to myself. I"m sorry.

tl;dr - family problems = no art because emotional stress