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21 this month.....(B-day rant/vent?)
9 years ago
Yeah. So...i'm 21 on the 20th. Woohoo, yipee, or whatever.
What's the big deal really. It's just another worthless day with no meaning other than that i can now totally fuck up my life! Well, legally anyway. I don't know how to really feel about it considering the relapse i've been taking a nose dive into. But hey! I've still got my art! That's a positive! Right?
I dunno. I find no meaning in birthdays anymore. I mean last year i spent the day with someone special but our plans this year seem like their gonna fall through. Considering the broken contact. It's just gonna be one big depressing and miserable month. I'm already feeling deflated and it's only 4am on the 1st.
I don't WANT to do this again. I don't want it to come....
What's the big deal really. It's just another worthless day with no meaning other than that i can now totally fuck up my life! Well, legally anyway. I don't know how to really feel about it considering the relapse i've been taking a nose dive into. But hey! I've still got my art! That's a positive! Right?
I dunno. I find no meaning in birthdays anymore. I mean last year i spent the day with someone special but our plans this year seem like their gonna fall through. Considering the broken contact. It's just gonna be one big depressing and miserable month. I'm already feeling deflated and it's only 4am on the 1st.
I don't WANT to do this again. I don't want it to come....
Wish i did remember, its somewhere in there but still. Can't say i've been great parsay, but i've always had worse, so very few complaints. ^-^