Y'know being called a failure by others doesn't really bother me, but when your parents tell you that... well I thought it didn't mean shit, but as I go back and remember what they told me. That... that really sticks. Being constantly reminded how your siblings are doing so much better and making you just feel terrible.It's a bit fucked up LOL... but what are you supposed to do? I've been drinking more than I should and just feeling like a total actual failure. Even to the point where it's affecting my drawings. My mother still hasn't said a word after my grandfather died and my step father... is still a huge asshole...

What I'm saying is... I don't need help. I've been getting by and doing things on my own. With time I'll probably get better, but I still want to draw, today.

So right now, I'm taking some ideas to sketch when I get home. I've been out of it and need to be distracted for a bit. (Be it pokemon.. hell, even other ideas) just don't expect to see some work done.

Also... if you're here to "cheer me up".... don't...it'll be a waste of your time.

Lastly to the people I owe art. Don't worry just need to work some shit out and I'll be good to go!

Edit: i may have had a few drinks before I put this up....